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long hiatus = europe working holiday trip

2010-11-18T05:16:00.000-08:00

bismillahirrahmanirrahim

salam smua..wow! besawang gle da my blog ni

a long hiatus from me..xjenguk langsung diary alam maya nih

alhamdullillah..i juz went back from 2 weeks of business trip

it was xciting n fun! sbb kat europe! hehe

KL-Amsterdam-Dusseldorf, Kassel, Bamberg, Heidelberg (Germany)-Basel,Zurich (switzerland)-Vienna (Austria)-Milan and final destination Venice, Italy.

haaaa...ni working holiday nmenye! hehehe

very tiring..tp xpela..fully sponsored kn..hihi

ok! nk share few pics from my trip

Heidelberg, Germany. kat balcony 1 of d oldest castle kat sane.rse mcm fairytale abes!

Alps Mountain..1700m from sea level.it was gorgeous!

enjoying my Italian seafood spaghetti..yum3 :))

kalo kt Venice..sgt rugi kalo xnaik gondola ni :))

rite..for my wedding prep plak..my wedding da dicepatkan! ske2! :)

but then..only 5 months left n thousands of things need to be done

gelabah ok! huhu

what color palette should u choose quiz

2010-09-30T06:45:00.000-07:00

salam sume!

betemu kembali!! again..lme blog ni ditinggalkn xbeupdate

bz yg teamat..huhu. smpai kn Wedding Project pon tegendala!

hah..mmg xpatut..huhu

td sempat wat quiz

WHAT COLOR PALETTE SHOULD U CHOOSE FOR UR WEDDING?

coz i masih dlm process menyebey colors dat suit us very well

i've decided to choose it slowly..xnk serabut2..hehe

okeh! hasil dpd quiz adelah...

ahaks! romantic? am i? hahaha.have to confirm wif bb..hiihii

according to diz quiz my inspiration's colors would be

blue n silver

blue symbolizing purity and fidelity (source)

pink n gold

source

lilac n brown

source

em korg perasan x yg all these were shortlisted colors in my prev entry? here we've blue, pink n lilac(so called purple)?hehe. maka dgn ini i agree sgt2 dgn diz result!haha.so eah..sila decide!

***honestly..i xtau till when i akan dok konpius dgn color ni. n when will i decide d color..hehe T.T

tolong vote kn.. :)

2010-09-23T05:51:00.000-07:00

salam n hi ladies!

anda masih d mood beraye?

me masih..haha.dats y besawang blog ni xbehupdate..hihi

my raye was fun! best gle..konon beraye sakan as a single lady la kan

thun dpn insyaAllah da bedua plak..ahakz! gatal! =p

okeh cte pasal raye sakan ni..i beraye sampai lupe yg naik je cuti pas raye i ade SPA interview!

hamek kau..nasib baik ade hati lg nk check ble eh interview tu

kalo x..sekian..xg interview la jwb nye!huhu

raye ke-5 my family n i g berye kt perak. mereka nk jmpe bakal besan n for sure i nk la bery ngn bb! hehe :)

mlm2 smpat ag g menara condong nih..adik sgt excited coz de ckp da lme xpegi. n in dis pic my bb looks like has gained so much weight! baru bpe hr rye..haih

habes cte rye..hehe

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okeh..as referred to my post title..i nk mntk tolong sgt kat anda2 yg membace entry ni utk vote kn color.bleh?

please choose 2 colors. 1) for nikah 2) for reception

please take into consideration our skin colors. mine is kuning2 n bb is cerah (kalo de burn time g site naseb le..huhu)

we finalized all these colors after having some discussion time rye hr tu..hihi. so pleeezzzz..help us eh :)

plez be appropriately informed dat all d pics was taken from Google

1) light/soft blue

bride (source)

2) white/blue combination

source dr incik Google

3) pink champange

color combinations

source dr incik Google

4) dusty pink (color ni cm lebey kurang ngn pink champange je kn)

source

5) dramatic purple

source

6) dusty violet

source

emm..tolong sy eh..if anda ade suggestion kaler2 yg lain..juz leave ur comment k.thanx! cyg korg..:)

***mcm sgt takot nk g Jakarta coz keadaan di sane mcm xmengizinkan je..huhu

frust! :(

2010-09-06T19:18:00.000-07:00

hi ladies!!

hari raye da sgt2 dekat?

baju raye da siap? biskut rye?

for me..preparation tok rye simple je

baju da tempah tp lom amek ag..tu pon anta kain yg dpt mse merisik n tunang..hihi

kasut rye? handbag rye? xpe laa..not in list

sekarang adelah mse utk sy bejimat.yee..sgt bejimat ye eah

each n every penny yg kuar kne ingt n amek kira..hehe

ok! enough psl rye

sekarang nk buat luahan perasaan plak

i penah mention yg i da booked kak anis finesse touch for makeup

ye mmg btol..tp at d same time i still ade usha2 MUAs yg len

juz for comparison

yaaa..i think sepatutnye once u have made up ur mind

dont look at other things coz definitely it will make u feel like confused? huhu

honestly i ske makeup kak anis coz i think its simple yet nice

cukup la i kne makeup cam hape je time tunang

sedey uu!!! :(

so..utk nikah n reception i decide utk lebey choosy..haih

tp mslhnye skrg..PRICE!

ape yg sgt2 menyedihkan i as org JB is

i rse wedding preparation kt JB ni sgt mahal kot!

kualiti so-so je..n not so many choices

frust kn? nk jmpe makeup cm MUAs kt KL? hah..mmg ssh ok

i ade mintak quot dr MUAs yg len n they quot me for 2x makeup + transportation n WITHOUT accomodation is up to 2K!! masyaAllah..ok maybe ade yg rse ok la price tu but for me i xsanggup kot nk kuar duit byk cm2 hanye utk makeup yg i pkai few hours je. might as well i spend d money for our honeymoon. yes mmg bb yg setel kn utk honeymoon but still...i bleh gne duit yg byk itu utk bende2 lain. plg xpon i hire Zery Zamry to design my outfit. lg bebaloi2. so..i sgt2 frust ok. tp syukur kak anis quot i dgn harge yg sgt bepatutan. syg kak anis..hehe

pelamin? setakat ni..blom ade bridal boutique yg bejye impress me with their design. maybe i akan bwk my own design n discuz wif them. nk kate i kreatif xkot..i cme suke smting yg SIMPLE tp tetap n tetap maintain dgn kecantikannye. tu je. ok..maybe ni syndrom bride to be yg poyo cm i..hihi

kesimpulannye..my parents ckp..cani la..nt ble smpai mse company anta i dok Jakarta..crk la pape yg patot. kalo x pon..nnt amek cuti few days then kte g KL shopping pape yg patot. mmg habis duit myk n hotel tp..bebaloi dr segi kualiti n akan lebey byk choices.

okeh..cukup la bebel. panjang sgt daa..huhu

btw..SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

mohon maaf ye jika ade antara luahan2 i kt blog yg xseberape ni menyinggung perasaan anda2

till here

daaa~

JB Wedding Fair

2010-09-03T08:21:00.000-07:00

salam n hi ladies! :)

akhrnye!! yg dinanti2 kan tiba jua

JB Wedding Fair

da lme sgt da i tunggu wedding fair yg masyuk kat JB nih

biase nye kalo ade pon kt Plaza Angsana @ Kotaraya shj

n bridal boutiques yg join pon sme je serupe..heh T.T

tp honestly..i xtau la plak kali ni pnye serupe ke x..hehe

wateva it is..kpd org JB

jika anda kelapangan..mari2 ke wedding fair ini

mgkin ade yg bekenan di hati..if not pon

at least we can get some idea isn't it? :)

actually i tau psl wedding fair ni pon ble abg assistant planner kt opis tu btau..kalo x..sure nye xtau..huhu

**so..on dat date..have to ask bb balik JB.harus! tp cane plak ni..24 Oct tu i da outstation lg..haih -.-*

nikah : malay classic / reception : english contemporary

2010-09-01T07:20:00.000-07:00

salam n hi ladies :)

another 10 months to go until our mission accomplish.

fuuhh..sekejap je kan

feel like nk update checklist..tp rse segan silu pulak coz nothing much has been done!

oowwhhh..blame me! dush3! sepak diri sndiri T.T

for d past few days

i keep thinking about our theme; nikah n reception

theme..including d colors

yesss!!! again! i ssh gle nk decide..huhu

but i think..1st i'll list down all d colors which i think cantik

then i bring it to bridal boutique n designer for discussion

then baru i decide..emmm btol ke eh pe yg i buat? -.-*

i like soft color..coz my dream wedding is simple yet stylish :)

NIKAH

Malay Classic

no 1 : sunrise

no. 2 : dull pink

RECEPTION

English Contemporary

source

sini

incik tunang sgt ske color ijau! :)

sini plak

paling ske! combination of 2 colors! orange n aqua. cntik x? :)

blue-green combination

ske kaler royal blue..nmpk cm mewah gitu..tp xtau le match ke x ngn theme +

sng ke x nk crk material kaler cmni tuk buat dress..heh

so..kesimpulannye..xtau nk choose.haha.kne mntk pendapat yg pakar.anyone of u?can share idea wif me :)

***got some argument wif bb bout colors n outfit..haha. bb ckp die xske pakai tie. ok..xyah pakai! :p

hantarans, goodies, photographer all in 1

2010-08-30T07:58:00.000-07:00

salam sume :)

hr ini mood baik coz bufday gurl xley marah2..hihi

emm..tbe2 tepkr..am i big enough of getting married?haha

my answer for sure big YES! coz i nk sgt kawin! [huh..gediks sungguh! haha]

diz week..insyaAllah i'll have a date wif Lian newlywedsphoto

she's my schoolmate's gf. waahh..kecik sungguh dunia ni kan

pusing sane pusing sini skali..eehhh..die membe kpd membe..gf/bf membe..kdg2 tu smpai sedare n etc

Lian ni for me sgt talented. coz she could be photographer, wedding planner n her sis plak terer wat cakes, cuppies, macarons yg super duper cute! if u olls nk wat candy bufet ke..mereka ade package yg menarik..haa..sila click sini plak.

soo..oleh krn Lian adelah kwn i..so if bleh i nk sgt support die!

maka..i think..our discussion will be on hantarans deco (coz i rse nk tempah je kali nih..hihi), goodies (macarons kot?) n as my official photographer :)

mudah kan..actually ni yg i mahu..i hanya perlu discuz dgn few party shj utk my wedding matters :)

takot nnt rmai sgt to deal wif..i pon jdk stress..huhu

hopefully our discussion will success..hehe

rite! enjoy d pics k! :)

during my bff E-day. credit to Lian n Amir! :)

ske sgt hand bouquet n..rse cm match je ngn my english theme..hihi

macarons yg comel! hmm..utk goodies ok x? :))

ni..credit to Lian's sis :D

some of their minicakes deco. cute sgt rse kalo nk letak kn hantaran :)

sooo..Lian n d team! i support u sgt2 ok! :)

**btw..i da booked kak anis from aniss finesse touch for makeup! she's one of the seindahwajah team. legaaa sgt..alhamdulliah Allah mudah kan urusan. at least sy akn ke Jakarta dgn hati yg sedikit lega :))

hepi besday to me :p

2010-08-29T17:50:00.000-07:00

hepi bufday to me..

source

syukur alhamdulillah

hr ni..genap umur sy 22 tahun

da bsr panjang da..da ley kawin..hikhik =p

[ayat gatal]

insyaAllah last celebrate as a single lady..hihi

oleh krn da nk jdk isteri org da kamu ni eah

maka..perbaiki diri

ape yg -ve to try +ve kn ye

usaha jdk yg tebaik :)

hari ni saya..

2010-08-28T06:06:00.000-07:00

salam n hi sume

hari ni :

1st time g bazar utk Ramadhan taun ni. itu pon sbb bb ade kt JB

badan skt2 n i dont know y. mayb my menstrual syndrome kot ++ xckup rest n endup hr ni sgt xsehat n kalo ikot kan hnye mampu utk baring shj. last week g Dr then Dr ckp my BP was low. sbb penat sgt. hmmm..no wonder la bgn pg dizzy je rse. low BP rpenye

sian sgt kt bb coz xg mne2 pon hr ni. emm stkt g bazar je la. ibu ade soh g usha box utk goodies tp sori bu..xlarat sgt. eemm..nasib baik jgk ade along ley sembang ngn bb

along tlg belikan scott's emultion..sbb berat sy makin menurun n sy sgt riso. seyes riso! bln puase mkn mmg sket je. time buka n sahur. xde moreh2 ni..huhu. maybe kalo mkn scott's tu ley tmbh selera mkn? coz setakat ni..tiap2 pg sy akan telan 3 biji multivitamins for energy n selera sy ttp maintain. org rmai ckp 'kawin je eah..pas kawin naik la berat tu..hati da hepi..cik abg da ade kt sblh. ktorg rse ko ni tahan rndu..sbb tu mkn sket je..' hmmm..btol kot pe dorg ckp..heh

i say sori to bb coz rsenye i da break my promise to take a very gud care of myself. bb dtg jauh2 then tgk i mkin kurus n look tired. bb ckp..'its ok syg..nt kte da kawin bb jge syg btol2 k..bb xnk cam skrg ni k..' syukur bb terima sy seadanye :)

** mmg sy bekeje keras skrg ni sbb sy nk kawin cpt n sy xnk beban kn bb sorg for our wedding. marriage is about sharing. for me bkn setakat share katil, bantal, rmh, toilet, etc..tp share segale2 nye. ssh n senang even before marriage. maaf! sy xnk terima ble org ckp 'relax eah..ape nk pening..kawin kn laki pnye t/jwb..ko relax je..' sgt2 maaf! coz for me..yg nk kawin tu kami bedua. bkn die sorg je. kalo de kawin sorg haa yela t/jwb kt die je. ok? fhm? itu prinsip sy..nk terima ke x..bkn mslh sy! [owwhh..maaf..sedikit emosi sbb sgt xske ble org provok sy psl bende nih :( ]

** sy akui..entry hr ni entry beremosi.. -.-*

daaa~

:) :) :)

2010-08-26T21:16:00.000-07:00

hepi nye hr ni!!!

coz hr ni hr Jumaat n bb blk JB hr ni!! :D

fuuhhh...sy sungguh excited! sgt2!

xsaba nk tunggu pkl 4.45 pm then punch card pas2 straight to Senai airport :))

bebunga2 n di awang2an je rse

mls nk layan sespe yg naik hangin kt opis nih

coz hr nih mood sy sgt baik n sgt gembira

sbb mau jmpe bb!! :) :) :)

plan ur wedding! jgn anggap remeh!

2010-08-25T08:03:00.000-07:00

salam n hi :)

hr ini..me gelabah telebey coz time buka pose td ibu ckp de da try utk booked DEWAN ALUMNI UTM for my reception. date blom finalized lg tp insyaAllah last week of June 2011 @ 1st week of July 2011. ibu ckp xley middle @ end of July. coz..according to calender..1st Ramadhan will be on 1st Aug 2011. fuhh! me mau x bepeluh sejuk dibuatnye. coz rse cm alamak!!! ade bape bln je kot nk prepare! tolak bape2 bln coz time kt Indonesia nt sure bz tahap gaban nye. ok. maybe ley la curik2 mse wat pape yg patot. but still.. not as easy as me kat Malaysia kan? rite..skrg..breath slowly..relax..then think! xmo gelabah2 lg eh eah :)

okeh! where to start. hmm checklist again? yaa..yaa..finalized 'ur wat to do checklist' eh eah. i managed to bongkar blk my PENGANTIN magazines (special edition ; 9th anniversary; july 2010) n i found 'rancanglah majlis perkahwinan anda, jangan anggap remeh!'. maka..utk my checklist..i would like to combine few sources so it'll be more details :) emmm...utk starting ni..me buat checklist utk 1/2 @ a yr before wedding je..

6-12 month before ur big day

Choose date utk nikah n reception
the location for reception? kalo bleh..tempah awl n dapatkan skali location plan
what's ur theme?
ur estimated bajet?
survey then choose ur wedding planner yang terbaik & ikot kemmpuan
tentukan bape byk guest u want to invite n start to list down d names
choose ur bridesmaid
survey n choose caterer
who's ur photographer. penting nih! perakam memori :)
makeup
start brainstorm utk baju, design, etc for nikah n reception. sape designer yg u ske? :)
start beli barang2 hantaran spy xla rse sgt duit tu keluar. kalo beli sekali gus, waaahhh..mau terse kot duit tu keluar.hihi
semak dgn jabatan Agama Negeri bekenaan pekahwinan n peraturannye
lastly..tentukan lokasi u akan tinggal pas kahwin nt. if akan pindah ke rmh baru..then plan peralatan n perhiasan rmh baru

ade byk lg ni dlm magazine nih..de bg checklist smpai la pas majlis..bagus isn't it? ^_^

**syukur ble ibu n ayah da decide nk wat kt ALUMNI UTM je. sng. dkt ngn rmh mereka kte :)

**hmmm..sape kate merancang wedding itu mudah??for me..honestly..fenin2..tp xpe..fenin tp sonok+hepi+bahagia..hihi :)

daaa~

Ya Allah!! seyes la weyyhh..naakk kaawwiiiinnn!!!!

2010-08-24T01:00:00.000-07:00

ble bos da bg

list of documents needed for 'visa tinggal sementara' application

hah..mmg sah la kot ak ni nk kne anta dlm mase tedekat nih

hmmmm..tediam jp coz xtau nk ckp pe

i've no reason to say 'NO, I CANT GO'

coz i'm still single..tanggungjawab kt family sendiri xde lg

honestly agak berat gak la hati nk stay sane for few months

coz i'm going to miss my family n my bb..ohhh..noooo!!

xleh nk bayangkan kot

n yg plg mencabar..i've to pujuk my bb coz i'm gonna leave him again..n dlm jangke mase yg lame..

Ya Allah!! seyes la weyyhhh!!! NAAKK KAAAWWIIIINNNN!!!!!

coz dats d only solution kalo xnk pegi n jaoh ngn bb

** emm bb..bb dtg sane eh..nt bb dok umah ofismate eah..ok? then nt kte soping utk wedding kte skali k.. :) :) [sy beusaha tok snyum..]

:: checklist ape nk wat pas raye ::

2010-08-22T22:13:00.000-07:00

salam

pas raye..mmg btol2 nk kne start utk wat wed preparation

no more delay lg! xley2!

kalo dilayan tahap ke'busy'an me n him

sampai kesudah le xstart pon wat preparation

maka dgn ini..me ingin meng'list'kn ape yg nk kne wat pas rye nt

kot2 la kne cmpak dkt Indonesia bln 10 ni..set up plant kt sane

mau x lg haru dibuatnye

uuuwwaaaaa....xmo pkr ah..

nk pkr list ni je dlu....

kompemkan date utk nikah & reception
usha kursus kawin venue n price (nk murah kt UTM je laa..hihi :p)
usha bridal boutiques kt JB nih..nt akan di'list'kan. crk wedding planner!
usha venue utk nikah & reception. kne jelajah sume dwn kt JB nih..haih. pas2 booked trus

okeh..4 je dlu..coz ni je yg teingat.. :p xpe...slow n steady je yeeeee :))))

*** senanye perasaan mmg gelabah gle coz CEO da remind 2 3 kali me kne anta Indonesia.adeehhhh...jaoh lg ngn bb..sure kne pujuk bb btol2..sobbbieesss :'( tp yg best nyee....ley usha kad kawin n segala bagai lg coz da sure2 ticket sume company support! hehehehe

daaa~

:: ok! he's my man ::

2010-08-21T09:47:00.000-07:00

ketika ini..sy diserang perasaan rndu yg telampau dkt kekaseh hati sy merangkap incik tunang sy

waahhhh...hampir 2 bln lebey da xjmpe!

disbbkan ke'busy'an sy dan die

dan sy..ble da lme xjmpe..biasenye sy akn diserang kemurungan mengenangkan kekaseh hati yg sorg itu

maka..ble sy rndu die..sy suke n gemar becerita psl die @ kami

mse konvo sy :)

tensen! muke bb lg putih dr eah!!huhu

time ni..xtekate tahap bahagia nye..cm diawang-awangan..hihi

20/08/2010 genap 3 taun sy menjadi kekaseh hati die dan die menjadi kekaseh hati sy..
waahhh..xsangke ade jgk org yg besaba dgn sy!hehe

kami knl dkt UTM..specifically dkt KTR, UTM (spe dak utm sure tau ktne kn..hehe)

die course len, sy course len..batch lain..sng ckp de senior la kt utm tu

hmm..maybe luv at 1st site for him

but me..nope..1st time nmpk de xde perasaan pon

in fact..ble ade membe bwk perutusan btau yg membe de nk knl n he said u've met him before

i was juz..haaa???which 1?xpenah nmpk pon..xknl pon..

see...me mmg org slalu ckp muke selambe.mcm xde perasaan..but d truth is..sy ske wat hal sendiri..hehe

it took about 1 month ++ kot smpai la bb dpt my no. n we became fren

then...i started to like him n we fall in luv..utk pengetahuan..mse yg diambil utk declare sgt2 sekejap ok!hehe

mayb deep inside my heart..i oready have feeling yg 'hmm..i think he's my man'.. :)

n insyaAllah..sy rse pilihan sy tu btol

krn..ketika ini..saat ini..sy sgt2 mencintai die & bahagia

ooowwwhhhh!!! misss him damn much!

naaakkkk kaaaawwiiiiinnnnnn!!!!! :p

**xtau npe..mud rini nk gne kate ganti nme 'sy'..heh ^-^

~daaa

:: hepi 3rd anniversary syg :) ::

2010-08-20T06:47:00.000-07:00

specially dedicated to my luv

cintamu..adalah kesempurnaan bg ku :)

dear luv,

I never really knew you
You were just another friend
But when I got to know you,
I let my heart unbend.
I couldn't help past memories
that would only make me cry
I had to forget my first love
and give love another try
So I've fallen in love with you
and I'll never let you go
I love you more than anyone
I just had to let you know
And if you ever wonder why
I don't know what I'll say
But I'll never stop loving you
each and every day
My feelings for you will never change
Just know my feelings are true
Just remember one thing

I LOVE U syg..

(poem quoted from Ashley Wilson)

HEPI 3rd ANNIVERSARY SYG..MAY OUR DREAMS COME TRUE..INSYAALLAH :) :)

:: last ramadhan as a single lady ::

2010-08-17T23:20:00.000-07:00

assalamualaikum

fuuh...syukur alhamdulillah. i've safely arrived from Doha last monday. d trip was very2 challenging. mne x nye..puase at weather 40-50degC for 15hrs!!!! peerrrggggghhh....sgt mencabar ok! blom lg deal ngn mereka2. hah..tu lg menguji kesabaran

sila lihat..hanya batu2an..pokok segan silu nk tumbuh. mcm kwsn perang. keliling batu n desert!

ok..ckp la dlu cte psl doha..insyaAllah..if ade kesempatan will update more about d trip. wateva it is..i dont miss d weather in Qatar..but definitely i miss d food n companionship by our sales representative cum tourist guide there :)

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ok! 1st day pose..i had my sahur in airplane. sahur wif scramble egg, croissant n some mix fruits. rse cm nk nangis je kot time tu..huhu. dan lebey menyentuh perasaan..insyaAllah..diz Ramadhan will be my last ramadhan as a single lady..before getting married. next yr insyaAllah..i've to bangun early to cook for my hubby. mcm best kn? tp sedey jgk coz xdpt pose ngn ibu ayah lg :( n fyi..taun ni ak pakse my along tok blk mesia pose n raye kt cni je coz i told him diz yr might be d last yr to raye wif me b4 me begelar isteri org. n he blk!!! yeay!! :))))

*** utk rye taun ni..ak beazam nk wat biscuit rye at least 2 jns..hihi. ape jns xtau lg. hah..kne buktikan ni1 mst kne wat! hihi =p

*** n utk wedding preparation plak..me n bb have decided all d preparation will be done after raye. yeay!! can relax lg..hihi :D

malaysia-bangkok-doha

2010-08-09T05:39:00.000-07:00

alhamdulillah

Allah bg peluang kt ak tok g negara org without kuarkn $$ sendiri..hehe

company anta :)

last week..i went to Bangkok n Pattaya

for business trip wif CEO n board of directors

it was tiring..but it's ok..

1st time on business trip..byk belaja woooo

definitely i'll come again to bangkok n pattaya

tp wif my bb for our honeymun :)

Golden Heritage Hotel, pattaya..wait for us haaaa :)

n tomorrow nite..my next business trip

to doha, qatar.n i'll be my 1st time

bepuase di perantauan

can say i'm quite xcited..tp gerun gak

coz weather kt sane 42 deg C!!!waaahhhhh...pns sungguh kowt

hope sume nye OK2 sje..insyaAllah

orite! nk packing brg..adehhh..ni yg mls nih..huhu

love notes..on a mission to be mrs faizi..

2010-08-08T17:34:00.000-07:00

assalamualaikum n pg sume

agak besawang jgk diary alam maya ak nih

xsempat pon nk beblog

bz teamat!! huhu

juz a quick update coz kt opis nih..hihihi

oleh krn ak nih adelah b2b (bride to be).. :)

maka dgn ini..ak menukar personal blog ke b2b blog!

sides of me --> love notes

sje..utk memberi ak semangat wat preparation kawen!!! hahahaha

1 blog pon besawang..ni nk ade2 blog??

harapan..so..lebey baik maintain 1 je :)

okeh..sekian!! mase utk bekeje! uuuuwwaaaaaaa....mls nye....huhuhu

:: engagement day preview ::

2010-07-19T08:05:00.000-07:00

until today

it has been 1 month 1 week n 6days of our engagement day

preparation mmg wat slowly

some people may prefer to write in diary

but for me..i use excel file je

coz sng nk wat calculation..hahaha

so..ley le control diri ini spy x over d budget

err...nothing much to say

juz..sila la menjamu mata :)

mini pelamin kami

after few pameran pengantin ak g

akhirnye ak dpt pon mini pelamin yg diingini

not say diidamkan la..but i think dis was d best 4 us

something different

n actually..pelamin ni pelamin dwn senanye..3 panel

but i insist to have diz design..n after few discussions wif AZM Bridal Boutique, JB..ni laa hasilnye

cntik x? d theme is arabian theme :) [n rmai org sbuk tgk pelamin dpd tgk org..hahaha]

my hantarans theme [me to bb] was black n red roses

n fyi..wat sndiri nih..keje keras ngn ibu n my die hard supporters

n..intoducing! my "die hard supporters"

from left..alai, kak un, us, mai n jiha..

luv them mucho! :)

me..tesipu2 kt dais

oowwhhh..seyes! ckup la skali ni je ak sanding sorg2. malu gle kowt! mne xnye..me yg perangai cm agk tomboy tbe2 kne makeup tebal2 n sopan2 kt dais..eeeiiiiieeewwww! hihi

but actually..i HATE my makeup..will share wif u y i hate it so much..huhuhu

here we are..bahagie sungguh rse time nih..hahaha

i mmg crazy of him..luv him damn much

cant say in words :)

close up..hmmm..rmai yg kte muke kami ni ade iras.yeke?
[elehh..ske senanye org ckp cm2..hahaha :p]

nota kaki : occay..here is my confession.i dont know how to write well.i mean if u think my words mcm tunggang langgang..plez forgive me..huhu. byk bende nk story kowt..but dont know how to elaborate it in words! haha :p

till here..

daaa~

baking wif luv

2010-07-18T08:22:00.000-07:00

diz week..kekaseh ati sy..

incik tunang aka eg aka bb (mnje x..?hihi :p)

blk jb..[wah..blk..bkn dtg ok..haha]

sblm blk jb bb penah request bb nk mkn cake

tp bkn bli pnye!

nk yg ak wat..ok fine!

honestly..baking ni mmg antara ak nye experties

[perrgghh..ayat cm belagak..haha]

tp ble da lme gle xwat..mmg bekarat habis!

soo..dgn merendah diri nye

ak msg my BFF..amri tok bg recipe yg de pnh bg dlu

moist cake choc..sllluurrrpppp... :)

mmg kaw2 cake de..chocolaty abes!

i really want to share d recipe

but i think i should ask his permission 1st

yelaa...kinda xposing his secret recipe ke kn..hehe

so..better i ask him 1st..if he said OK..i'll share wif u k

d best part is..i'm baking wif my bb :)

bb was so xcited mse wat cake tu..rse cm husband n wife plak msk sesme..hihi [mood gatal..heee~]

few ingredients be used

bb sgt rajin kali ni tlg kt dapo..hehe :p

hmm..me have to wear tudung 24/7 when bb at home

dannn...ini lah hasilnye..cake ni kne kukus tau..bkn bakar nye

ok2! have to admit..rupa xcntik..but bb kte sedap..hihi

tq much am!

so! mission accomplished! :) :) :)

wedding checklist

2010-07-14T07:28:00.000-07:00

salam

hr ni..ade 1 kemajuan
iaitu sy bejaye utk crk some info, input for my wedding
kot ye pon mls..kne jgk occay

rite..berikot adelah 'checklist for 12 month b4 wedding day' [copied from bakalpengantin.com]

Memilih tarikh untuk majlis pernikahan dan persandingan
Memilih lokasi majlis, waktu jamuan dan tempahan makanan
Menentukan gaya serta tema majlis persandingan
Mengaturkan bajet
Memilih perancang majlis perkahwinan yang terbaik dan mengikut kemampuan anda
Mengumpul nama tetamu
Memilih pengapit, pengiring serta pengacara majlis
Memilih cincin pernikahan
Memilih kek pengantin
Memesan cenderahati untuk tetamu

ooowwhhh..segalanye sy xpkr lg! huhu..mst mula dr sekarang! setaun je lg weyh..dush2! sepak diri sndiri..lg mau main2..heh :P

daaa~ :)

aksi akrobatik latih otak

2010-07-13T19:28:00.000-07:00

ok! juz a quick update!

hah..bace title je pon agak pelik

sila tgk pics dibwh..

hah..mmg benar! pelik tuu..

KOSMO ONLINE

ni da ala2 lagak ngeri kowt ak rse

tgk cm kesian kt dak tu

tp tu la antara cara2 utk bantu pekembangan otak baby

aksi yg lain

xceli..ak rse ayah ak pon wat cm2 gak r

coz kdg2 ak tgk de begurau senda ngn cucu sedara de [yelakan..lom ade cucu sndiri..tumpang kasih dlu la..hehe] pon cmni gak

sebijik r ngn lagak ngeri diats

tp ayah mmg ade ckp

wat cani bagos utk brain baby

coz..blood byk mengalir kt brain

tp..betape tepatnye bnde ni

ak xtau..huhu

tp kalo nk try nt pe salahnye..hihi

utk berita lanjut mengenai aksi diatas

sila klik sini

sekian!mse tok type report..huh..xsuda2..huhu

daaa~ :)

plan a wedding is not easy

2010-07-12T06:03:00.000-07:00

plan a wedding is not easy

everyone has their own opinion

but whose advice to heed?

oowwhhh..mmg pon

sgt2 mmg btol teamat (eerr...ape pnye ayt daa..)

trus trg..ak msih ditahap selambe lg

lom pkr pon ag nk wat theme ape n segale bagai

kt mne pon ak xpkr lg..heh

hmm..mood blom menjelma..
nt laa..ble mood mengusha ak da dtg

mmg non-stop r jwbnye ak wat survey

hah..itu masa..mmg snggup xmkn ngadap lappy survey pape yg patot

p/s tok diri sndiri : err..yg utama skrg..kne byk la bce buku2 ilmiah.ape nk kata..haaa..siap kn diri.yela..nk build baitul muslim bkn 1 bende yg mudah..huhu

Humble = low self esteem??

2010-07-11T21:37:00.000-07:00

hr ni ak konpius lg

xkronik sgt kot..tp xkire la kan..

i juz wondering

if i choose to be a humble person

does it mean i've low self esteem

honestly

i'm konpius occay!!

HUMBLE = LOW SELF ESTEEM?????

yeke? xkot kn

coz pd ak..humble tu xsemestinye ko xconfident kt diri ko

juz ko xnk show off je kowt

n rsenye..sbg sorg muslim..

ak kne maintain humble kn..bkn keje nk hidung tinggi je

huh.lantak la org nk ckp ape

nk ckp ak ni low self esteem ke ape ke

xpon xnk market diri ke

yg penting..ak adelah ak!

ak bahagia kowt ngn diri ak..!

lg pon..bkn ko yg bg rezeki kt ak

ALLAH yg bg..

Ya Allah..jaohkan la ak dpd rse riak, sombong n takbur..amin

saturated daa..

2010-07-08T19:12:00.000-07:00

ok..mlm td hang out ngn wani n tylla

konon2 cm tensen la kn smlm

end up jmpe dorg

gelak rse cm xhengat dunia

fuh..lega

n konon2 lg rini g keje ok la mud tu

rpe2 nye bangon tdo da rse cm ade batu kat mata xnk kasik bukak!

adoi laaa....nk kte sindrom PMS jaoh lg kot

baru je

xkn la sebulan 2 kali!

mak aih..subur gle ke ape?

owwhhh...ni mst da smpai thp saturated stress

huh??ade ke term tu?

wateva..i'm saturated occay..

ok2 stop! report weyh belambak nk setel

MAJU2!

**senanye rse kecewa coz xdpt soping bln ni..CLK ak msok workshop.pokai den..huhu

06.06.10

2010-06-02T19:57:00.000-07:00

bismillahirrahmanirrahim

2 more days to go

hmm..cpt nye mse belalu

neves..smoga segalenye ok

Ya Allah..panjangkan jodoh kami..amin..

when u ask me to marry u

2010-04-20T20:16:00.000-07:00

syg...kawin ngn bb?

ya Allah! seyes..mmg ni la yg ak tunggu dpd bb

mmg parents bb da dtg rmh

but he hasn't propose me officially..hihi

hmm..even bb nmpk mcm xseyes je time tu

yela..he's not a romantic type

so..ak juz menganggap..

tu la lamaran dpd lelaki yg ak syg :)

salah 1 memori yg ak akn ingt smpai akhir!

2 CARA NK DPT KN BUTT YG CANTIK

2010-04-14T06:06:00.000-07:00

1st of all..sila jgn anggap entry ak kali ini adelah entry 18SX occay...hehe

bg org pompuan..body shape mmg la 1 bende yg sensitive sgt utk didiscuzkn

coz org pompuan sgt ssh hati n sgt ssh nk puas hati ngn body dorg

ade je xkne..ok..mayb xsume org cm2

tp ak antara nye la..haha

bkn xbesyukur..tp selagi bleh dpt yg lebih baik..slagi tu la nk try
lg pon ak da pnt dgr org dok complaint coz ak ni kurus..
ape la kn..kurus salah..gemuk lg la salah
'ko jeles senanye kn ak kurus..huhu'

ok..ni ak nk share la some info yg ak dpt hsl dpd trainer kt gym (yg da dkt sebln ak xg..huhu)

n internet

2 CARA NK DPT KN BUTT YG CANTIK

aerobic & walking hill..sape2 yg ade treadmill kt rmh..lg bagos.u juz have to choose menu 'hill' xpon 'incline' then truskn mendaki selame mne yg anda boleh ye..kalo xde treadmill korg bleh turun naik tangga sebpe byk yg korg ske jgk.final option kalo kt rmh xde tradmill n tangga, korg crk la pape yg ley wat korg cm jln naik bukit @ tangge..ok?

squat.hmm..ini ade 2 cara.if korg ade dumbell kt umah..ley gne kn dumbell.if xde..pon boley juge.sila refer pics dibwh ye..ini adelah cara2 nk wat squats.tp ingat!cara kne btol..if not..korg akn merana skt kt kaki n pinggang kalo tesalah wat..huhu

ini adelah cara utk squat yg menggunakn dumbell.cara yg plg best coz akn terasa sume otot yg bekaitan - tgn,kaki,pinggang, butt diregangkn..best! n cpt la butt nmpk cntik..ahakz! u juz have to push ur butt ke blakang n repeat it if possible 3 set (8 times each).means 24 kali..huhu.da lagi terer wat la byk mne pon..ske ati kamo le..

ok..bagi beginner..adelah dinasihatkan spy anda wat cara yg cani ok..nt agak2 da tau cane nk push butt ke blakang baru la gne cara di atas ye..

emm...cara2 diatas ni la yg slalu ak wat.tp da xconsistent da wat skrg nih..blk keje xnk lmbt gle.tp tu sume alasan je..kalo nk cantik..kol 12mlm pon ley wat ape..hehe.

***entry ni senanye nk bg semangat kt ak spy slalu wat exercise nih..xle ak nmpk kurus sgt nt..haha =p

a man married dead bride

2010-04-13T02:12:00.000-07:00

ape yg dikate kn cinta sejati..

ntah la..trus terang ak pown xley nk xplain..haha

ok..maybe ni la yg diktekn cinta sejati..
ntah eh..hehe..cte ni ofismate ak email..

kisah ni belaku kt China

a 26-year-old Chinese man Zhuang Huagui has married his dead girlfriend Hu Zhao, 21, who was murdered 8 days ago..
actually dorg ni plan nk kawen pd 4 Feb..tp a week b4 dorg nye wedding..the bride was stabbed to death wif 2 thieves..jht nyew!

ttp..with all his luv + pain he still want to marry his dead gf..sobsob =(

their wedding ceremony was held at funeral parlor and family from both sides witnessed their wedding

the bride was placed in crystal coffin wearing her wedding gown (yg xsempat de nk pkai la kn..sobsob)

The groom held his wife’s wedding photo in front of the funeral parlor to welcome the guests for coming to the wedding.

the groom gave wedding ring to his dead wife.

hm..sedey kn?huhu

desperate~

2010-04-12T18:46:00.000-07:00

i'm trying damn hard to motivate myself..

to bring d old eah back

d one who was confident n high self esteem

i'm desperately want it back

coz i dont want to hate myself more..

dr blog wani mohd..

from here

ak tau..semestinya ade hikmah di sebalik setiap ujian yg Allah beri..ak yakin dgn kekuasaan Mu Ya Allah..

romantic moment

2010-04-11T07:22:00.000-07:00

last week, bb had went back to jb..again!

ye! 1 week after his convocation

disebabkan ktorg xpuas nk jmpe mse convo tu

a week after, bb blk lg jb

diz time we want to spend more time together

i could say..we have to appreciate every seconds we've coz if not..

we have to wait another long days tok jmpe lg..

oowwwhhh...sobbies for me coz jaoh dr bb..huhuhuhu

we went to public beach desaru
frankly speaking..pantai de tu xle cntik pown
but if juz nk romantic moment wif ur luv one
y not!
desaru pown ok juge..ahakz!

muke pucat!haha.combination of bru bangon tdo (sori bb..hihi) n starving to death!

ehem..tlg jgn gelak occay.well actually dat morning i manage (ceh..manage) to cook nasi lemak ngn smbal udang..however disbbkn keterujaan telampau..i forgot to bring segalenye even smbal!haha.yg ingt bwk tikar,tisu,sudu n piring tu..haha! so..we decide mcD suda..hahaha

specially order for my bb..coz bb ske sgt moist choc ake..da lme xwat tok bb.so..diz time order je..hehe

choc+strawberry = luv

(err..tlg jgn imagine ct n dato' k occay..eeiiiiiieeewwww!)

bb teruja mkn cuppies! =p

teruja gak..tp cover la sket..hihi

luv u much dear..=)

bb syg..u are the sun in my day, the wind in my sky, the waves in my ocean and the beat in my heart..luv u..luv u damn much n will always be..=)

oowwhh..my 1st award!

2010-04-06T06:04:00.000-07:00

ok..sgt xsangke blog ak ni ley dpt award!
woowww!
ok..award was given by InfantiaHouse
sblm ak melompat2 coz dpt award..
there r few rules that i have to follow n fulfill 1st

1- Thank & link the person that gave you the award. puji sesikit la..(hehe3)

orite..thanx to u Infantiahouse.1st blog yg i jmpe utk buat bantal.how amazing!pas2 byk sgt nasihat2 kt ur blog..even i havent married yet..i ske gak bce..hehe.eemm...xpe la kn..ilmu..hihi

2- Pass this award onto 15 bloggers you've recently discovered and think are fantastic.

-wanie sk..

-wani mohd

-farra

-remy

-shaakir

-kak wa

- yantie

- ain J

- hanis farzana

- FA

err..maaf..nt sy fkr kn lg ye spe yg sy mau bg..hihi

3- Contact said blogs and let them know they've won the award.
baek!!!

4- State 7 thing about yourself.

- sy sorg yg tegas!haha

- sy cpt simpati ngn org..huhu

- sy sorg yg kurus!berat xmo naek2!haish!stress...

- sy ske berangan

- sy sgt mencintai en.mohd faizi bin mohd hizam

- sy sorg je ank pompuan.abg n adik sy ske buli sy..hihi

- sy xpnh rse sy hot..!huhu

sekian..owh!i'm blessed!hehe

neves!

2010-03-23T19:17:00.000-07:00

OWwwwHhhhh..

i'm neves..seyes!

ak neves weyh..huhu

normal gak ak ni eh..ingt kn cm xde perasaan..hahaha

npe ak neves eh?

neves nk outstation kew?

neves nk jmpe bb?

ke neves sbb 'itew'..??

oowhh..'itew' sudah pasti ak neves..huhu

mudah-mudahan sume OK n baik2 sje..amiin~

MAAF!

2010-03-19T23:03:00.000-07:00

MAAF!

sy tepakse..

sy tepakse mem'blocked' anda, anda dan anda

kerana..

FB sy adelah slh 1 hak saya

utk sy menghepikn diri & melepaskn rse di hati

MAKA!

sy xakan sesekali membenarkan anda,anda dan anda

merampas kegembiraan sy yg ini

kerana..

ANDA TIDAK LAYAK UTK BERKONGSI RSE HATI SY!

**so..jika anda xdpt pon nk view sy di fb..harap faham ye..krn anda telah temasok dlm BLOCK LIST sy..

GILE KE AK NIH??

2010-03-13T19:54:00.000-08:00

keinginan nk benti keje..

sgt2 menguasai diri ak lately

sbb ak mmg da xthn dgn environmet keje kt situ

seyes ak STRESS!

depression symptoms mmg da belambak da ade kt ak nih

nasib baik ak ni ade gak kesedaran nk carik jwpn

'nape la ak ni..da gle ke ak nih??'

search kt tenet..

huh..rupe2nye depression ak nih

R&D exec..

wah..nmpk mcm glamor..

boley la

tp ble da smpai part ak dipolitikkn

oleh bangsa ak sendiri

mmg BULLSHIT! [sori bhs ak kasar]

tp mmg tu la yg ak rse

n ak pon xkuase nk gadoh ngn membe ak sndiri

pd ak..dpd persahabatan ktorg hancur

baik ak tarik diri

MENGALAH DOES'NT MEAN AK KALAH

skrg..ak tgh menanti mse yg sesuai

sambung master @ keje tmpt lain

tp prefer wat master

ak BOSAN berada dlm golongan org yg ade PHD tp CETEK ILMU

PHD refers to perasaan hasad degki

biala master tu nt ak ngn diri ak..

supervisor n lecturer

keje ngn instrument

sng..bende bkn ley ckp

ya Allah..mudahkan la pejalanan hidup hamba Mu ini..

dalil cinta

2010-03-06T07:17:00.000-08:00

amek dpd sini

tbe2 mlm ni ak lyn cerekarama plak

jrg ak lyn cerekarama nih

ttp disebabkn ak ni fan FA (kat fb)

then de pon promote soh tgk cte nih..

ak pon melayan la..

sungguh bemakne cte ni

cte psl couple muda

yg nk kawen awl but not well prepare mentally, emotionally n segala la

kesimpulannye.....

kawen nih is not all about LOVE

LOVE pon ye gak..n bkn hny setakat..

'menghalalkn ape yg haram' [u know wat i meant kn..]

kalo stakat cinta begunung2 tp yg len2 xprepare

ssh jgk..

no wonder la ayh slalu pesan

ilmu perkahwinan tu kne ade..

skill masak,kms rumah,layan husband,layan mak mentua..segala la.

kesabaran??hah lagi la...

dlu time becinta len..ble da kawen..

sume share..bilik,katil,bantal,toilet...sume la kn

baru la kte akn kenal cane senanye couple kte tu

so..time becinta ni..

pd ak jgn la wangi 24/7

juz reveal ur -ve site

dpd situ kte akn blaja knl n phm couple kte tu

n tau whether de bley saba ke x ngn kte..

**neves plak ak..da cukup bagos ke ak nih nk jdk wife???huuuuuuu~

1 WORD!

2010-03-03T22:31:00.000-08:00

1 word!

FRUSTRATED

berselawatlah ke ats Rasulullah

2010-02-25T17:49:00.000-08:00

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT MAULIDUR RASUL

berselawatlah ke atas Rasul..junjungan besar Nabi Muhammad S.A.W

Dalil2 hadis tentang selawat

Sabda Nabi S.A.W “ Dari Ibnu Mas’ud r.a. bahawa Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda : Orang yang terdekat denganku pada hari kiamat ialah orang yang paling banyak berselawat kepadaku.” (Hadis Riwayat At-Trimidzi)

Sabda Nabi s.a.w : “ Berselawat atas para Nabi Allah dan utusan-Nya sebagaimana kamu berselawat kepadaku kerana mereka itu sama diutuskan sebagaimana aku diutus" (Hadis Riwayat Ahmad & Al-Khatib)

Sabda Nabi s.a.w : “ Dari Abu Hurairah r.a berkata : Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda : Janganlah kamu jadikan kuburku sebagai tempat perayaan dan berselawatlah kepadaku, maka sesungguhnya bacaan selawatmu itu akan sampai kepadaku dimana sahaja kamu berada . “ (Hadis Riwayat Abu Daud)

**mudah-mudahan ak xlupe dgn ajaranmu Ya Rasulullah..dan ak antara org yg terdekat dgn mu..amiin..

ntah ape ntah

2010-02-24T23:53:00.000-08:00

S.T.R.E.S.S!!!!

adeh....ntah ape ntah yg ak stress kn

lately pale rse cm serabut gle..

ooowwwhhhh..no..no..

SERABUT YG TERAMAT..

bos ak ckp..

manusia ni smpai 1 thp de akn rse full + pack gle

tu makne nye aura kte da xbtol

da stress sgt [de ckp ble tgk ak cm blur gle..huhu]

solution nye..blk umah..relax btol2

tenangkn fikiran

oowwhhh..baek lah bos

eerrr...sy nk cuti bley???huhu

y women cry n more sensitive than men?

2010-02-23T23:41:00.000-08:00

org laki slalu ckp..
'org pompuan ni sensitive sgt la'
'sket2 majok..xpon kecik ati..leceh btol..!'

plez dont deny my statement above ye wahai jejaka2..
becoz ini la hakikat
which wat i heard from my boy frens..

bb pon pnh ckp
'bb xmrh syg...sket pon x..mayb cara bb yg kasar sket..'
bb ckp de xmrh..tp 'xmrh' de tu ley wat ak kecik ati n for sure la nangis kn
coz bb ckp..i'm very sensitive person
then y me (woman) are more sensitive than him (man)?
is it bcoz my 'perangai' yg mmg sensitif or wat?

so..here..diz is wat i found after i 'Googled' y women cry..++ from my own opinions

Estrogen. Estrogen functions as primary female sex hormone. while estrogen are present in both men and women, there are usually present at significantly higher in women of reproductive age [wikipedia]. Estrogen ni memainkn peranan dlm women mental health which means when the level of estrogen is fluctuating and in low level, it correlates with mood lowering. so ble hormon 'emosi' ni mmg da sah2 byk kt dlm bdn pompuan..xpelik la kn nape org pompuan lebih mudah beremosi (sdh, kecik ati, majok n segala bagaii..) compared with man yg mmg sgt ssh nk beremosi @ sng ckp kurang berperasaan n sensitive. so plez guys..try to understand org pompuan ble de beremosi especially when d time comes (refer to PMS ble nk period). or kalo nk lebey fhm..try ingt date ble ur gf/wife period.de mengamuk2 pon korg bley la fhm cpt kn..'oowwwhhh..da smpai mse...'

2nd fact yg ak dpt. 'the left side of the brain controls language. The right side of the brain controls emotions. The reason women are more sensitive than men is because a woman's brain fibers are 23% thicker than men's, allowing them to be able to use both emotion and language at the same time, while men can't. In short, men aren't able to use emotions and language at the same time'..so bg gadis2 & wanita2 kte pon kne phm npe org laki nih ssh sgt nk fhm emosi n perasaan kte sbb da mmg brain dorg cmtu kn...

ni pendapat ak sendiri..sifat n lumarah org pompuan ni caring, penyayang n bejiwa lembut. ye mmg ak akui ak ni xla lembut sgt tp deep inside my heart..ttp jgk ade kelembutan sbg sorg wanita..naluri kewanitaan dan keibuan tu ttp ade. dan lumrah lelaki mst la strong physically n emotionally spy org pompuan akn rse secure ble berada disamping laki..dan..org laki diamanahkn utk carik nafkah family..so kalo sket2 nk emosi n menangis payah la kn.ttp..xpyh la jdk 'cold hearted' ataupon xbeperasaan sgt..

org pompuan ni sng sdh or nangis sbb ssh org pompuan nk simpan dlm hati..walopon mrh..leh smpai nangis..[ni ble ak da mrh thp gaban smpai rse nk dush2 org smpai de KO..]..org laki plak..kalo mrh..same ade tumbuk dinding, xpon tendang batu, xpon mengasingkn diri..then pas dok diam2 sorg2 daa cool..[based on pengalaman ak la eh..]..then bg ak..kalo ak dok pendam perasaan tu..nt kang ley jdk mental disorder plak kn..depression ke..xpon kalo da kawen gle meroyan..huhu

yg ni lg 1.lari dpd tajok sket..'y women cry in pain?' 'scientifically..according to a report published in October's Plastic and Reconstructive Surgery, women have more nerve receptors, which cause them to feel pain more intensely than men..' so..tejwb la npe org pompuan ni xthn skt..tp aneh kn..dlm keadaan org pompuan ni xthn skt..Allah tetap ciptakan org pompuan yg rse kesakitan childbirth..n ttp jgk lahirkn ank rmai2 walopon tau besalin tu skt..npe x org laki je yg diktekn sgt kuat n gagah perkasa lahirkn baby? mgkin sbb kekuatan tu mmg Allah pinjamkan pd org pompuan sbb Allah tau org pompuan yg ade kesabaran yg tggi n will be stronger than man dlm keadaan tetentu

kesimpulannye..wahai lelaki sekalian..sila la fhm npe org pompuan ni sensitive..jgn la awk dok mrh2 n ckp ksr2 ngn kami..dan bg org pompuan plak..kte kne beusaha spy xmelayan sgt sensitive kte tu.nt kang kalo sket2 nk majok, kck ati n sdh..laki mne ley thn kowt..~

why women cry..

woman is to be made special. Allah made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort..Allah gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children..Allah gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up,and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining. gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly. Allah gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart. Allah gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly. And lastly, Allah gave her a tear to shed. This is hers and only hers exclusively to use whenever she needs it. She needs no reason, no explanation, its hers."

"the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides.."

antara 3

2010-02-22T22:50:00.000-08:00

antara 3 nih..

which 1 is d best for me..

for my future..my life..my family n my luv one..

i) teruskn keje kt cni..but ad same time wat master in polymer engineering..

pro : monthly ttp ade cashflow in kt dlm acc..leh saving

cons : mayb akn amek mse yg lme sket coz work load dkt ofis ditambah2 lg ngn master

ii) accept offer dpd company lain..yg ni..xdpt wat master dlm mse tedekat la kn

cons : kne pkr gak ktne..nt kawen xkn nk quit lg. kat dlm CV xbest r coz tempoh keje kt satu2 company tu xlme..

iii) quit keje..wat master full time. by d time i'm getting married..i oready have master then apply for tutor

pro : bb plg ske yg nih..de xnk wife de nt keje tensen2.blk keje muka cm tapai basi bekerut stress..

cons : hmm...monthly $$ xmasyuk r..compare dgn keje kn.ble keje dpt la save duit..

hmmm...yg mne 1 eh...~~

ini abg aku

2010-02-19T20:58:00.000-08:00

dlm entry sblm2 ni..ak penah ckp nk wat i entry psl abg n adk ak kn..

k..1stly turn abg ak la kn..da nme pon abg..

so kne de dlu la..baru adk

[tp..bab kawin..biar ak dlu eh bang..2ngu ko lmbt sgt r.huhu]

name : Muhammad Asyraf bin Mastor

umo : 24 [5th Dec 1986] - jgn ckp ak xingt eh..

marital status: single n available [kowt la..abg!!ko available lg x nih??]

skrg dkt : Aalen, Germany

see..kecik2 da tunjuk kebaikan n kepimpinan..ketua kelas nih..hehe

penyayang kn abg ak nih..ngn adk ak cm2 la..kalo ak sure ak pijak prut de..ak kn ganas..haha

pandai abg ak nih..yela kn compared ngn ak..time spm main je..eh x2..ak lebey memberontak sebenornye time tu sbb ak xnk dok hostel!haha.abg ak x..baik je..ckgu2 kt sek ske gle compare ak ngn de 'farihah...npe awk xrajin n baik cm abg awk??' yela..ak ni kaki skip prep..haha. tp compare2 pon ade ak kesa??huhu. oleh sbb abg ak ni baik n pandai..de dpt la straight A's then wat ALG pas2 g german

time sek..pegawas de nih..ajk asrama lg..

abg ak ni jgk..dpd kecik result sentiase gempak.dpd tadika smpai la ke spm pas2 U de.kalo result xok pon..sbb de mls.tu je.xpon ade mslh2 yg menimpa..huhu.

juz..yg ak riso kn skrg nih..abg ak ni single lg.mmg r baru 24..tp..nk gak ak tgk de ade gf. tp..kalo bley..gf de tu ley sampai wat jdk isteri la..xpandai msk pon yg penting rajin masok dapor.lme2 pandai r kn..abg ak ni pencinta setia.so..kalo de da syg pompuan tu..mak aih..syg gle..btol x bang?? [bkn ko ske bce blog sk pon kn..hehe]

de kt austria..[ak curik pics ni kt fb de..haha

every week abg call.tny ok x?ade problem x?tp std jwpn ak la..'xpape..ok je..' coz mls nk bg de pkr bende bkn2.baek de pkr study de kt sane tu..lg baik dpd dok pkr mslh ak..hehe

mayb..abg abes study taun dpn kowt..tu pon kalo de xsambung master.kalo trus sambung alamatnye..betaun lg la kn kt sne..xpe2...dok sane.kang sponsor eah honeymoon kt german ye..haha =p

blk rye..dok pulun beraye umah membe2..ni la abg ak..ske crk membe..

da sampai mse utk berubah

2010-02-17T22:46:00.000-08:00

last CNY holiday

bb blk jb

bb sampai sab2 pg n blk penang semula selase pg

reason bb blk jb sbb

ayah mintak spy bb sendiri ckp dkt ayah

ayah nk dgr dr bb sendiri

bb: 'pakcik..bln * ni mak n abah nk dtg..'

ayah: 'oo..eah ade ckp kt pacik..kalo dtg hny stakat perkenalan..pacik xkesa..tp bila ade cerita disebalik tu..ni yg pacik nk kte bincang..'eg ni..btol2 da knl ke ngn eah.knl diri eah,perangai eah..pacik nk tau ape yg eg da tau psl eah.pacik xnk dgr yg baik2.tu eg bleh simpan sendiri..yg pacik nk tau..yg buruk nye psl eah ni dr eg sndiri'

ak dgr je bb crite kt ak ape yg dorg discuz kn.sbb time tu ak dok bantai tido dlm blk..hehe. then ak pesan kt bb da hbs nt call tau [walopon dlm 1 rmh je..haha]

well actually..ak sdr yg ak ni mmg byk perangai buruk..xsenonoh. ye la kn..membesar pon sekililing laki..mne nk dtg nye lemah lembut..haha.

ak ni kasar org nye. garang + tegas. n ak ni bleh kate tetap pendirian..ak bkn sorg yg telampau berperinsip.tp ade yg ak rse org xley kaco prinsip ak. sng ckp ak ni keras hati la.so ble da keras hati tu..ade la pns baran tu kn..huhu. betrayal n penipuan..2 bende yg ak mmg xley tolerate.sng ckp..ak ni panas.huhu

tp..bb kate..'sepanjang da nk dkt 3 taun kte knl..bb nmpk syg da byk berubah..kalo dlu lg pns kowt syg bb ni..skrg nmpk da lembut tu..'.

hmm..wateva it is..i'm trying to be better.lebey lemah lembut.penyayang n caring tu ak rse ak da cukup kowt [perasan!haha].juz ak kne blaja lg la cane nk tunjuk kn kasih syg ak tu..

to bb..thanx a lot syg..thanx sgt2 sbb ley terima my -ve site..=) [ade jgk laki yg ley ssaba ngn eah kn??hehe]

**juz wat luahan perasaan..coz sgt2 nk jdk wanita n isteri yg menyenangkn hati suami..ank yg wat ibu ayah hepi..akk n adik yg xgarang..pas2 manusia yg baik budi pekerti.sume ni ak kne blaja n pupuk dr skrg..Ya Allah permudahkan..~

2010-02-08T20:38:00.000-08:00

hr ni sy gado ngn die

ye! HIM

hish..rse nk tumbuk2 je de bley x??

xkawen lg kn..

da kawen baru nusyuz..

dush! dush!

hamek..

kne tumbuk 2 kali

hish..GERAM BTOL

sonok x jdk d only daughter?

2010-02-06T19:06:00.000-08:00

sonok x jdk sorg je ank pompuan?
mst sonok kn?nk sume dpt..~

hmm..ni la yg org slalu ckp kt ak
yeke cm2?
well hakikatye..xde r bez gle jdk ank pompuan tunggal
mcm tunggul je rse kowt
ye r..time kecik2 mmg masyuk
da besar ni..adeh..bosan kowt
xde membe nk sembang2 sgt psl boys, pas2 fashion
psl pape la kn

tp..abg ngn adk ak bes
dorg kalo sound mmg sentap
tp ak pon rajin sound dorg..haha

parents ktorg mmg style xpampered ank dorg
dorg syg gle kt ktorg..tp..
mmg strict..huhu

time kecik2 dlu..ktorg ade maid.patotnye ade maid tu cm relax la kn..haaa xde makne.ayh ckp..kasut sek basoh sendiri, baju iron sendiri, katil tu kms sendiri.pas mkn, angkat pinggan letak kt sink [da smpai time kne basoh sendiri,basoh la kn]
buku sek..sure r kms sendiri.tp..subuh2 ibu check btol x pe yg ktorg bwk g sek..kag bwk komik ssh plak kn..haha
ble da bsr..pas spm ak kne force dok umah.reason?blaja msk.'ibu xnk org yg kawen ngn ank ibu rse rugi coz akk (me) xpandai msk'..adeh..pas spm kowt..pe plak cte psl kawen..but then..ble mmg btol2 da sampai time nk prepare jdk sorg wanita [ceh =p] yg nk kawen..baru la rse syukur gle ibu force soh msk..sbb..skrg ni..bb pon da pandai rndu2 nk mkn mskn ak..hmm..seyes hepi.hakikatnye..org pompuan ni..blaja tinggi2 pon tp xpandai msk..cm xgune jgk..[time ibu brainwash ak..ni la yg de ckp..huhu]
ahaa..bab duit?seyes mmg ayh ibu ajr ktorg jimat.jgn bazir2 duit.ingt org2 yg ssh.hidop ni cm roda.skrg ade duit.esk lusa?kne beringat..kalo nk pape..mst kne usaha.kumpul wet..xpon exam kasik result power2 pnye.hah..pas2 baru ley demand..huhu.

ayah plak..mmg strict la hai...coz ayh ni 'soldier'.. naseb baik la xdisuruhnye ktorg kawad tiap2 pg..huhu.

ayh ak ni..kalo nk tau..de mmg strict bab2 adab nih.time kecik2 dlu..nk mkn mst dok diam2, bce doa n mkn.nsk xbleh terabur.amek lauk ade cara nye.pas2..ble time ktorg kne blaja 'table manners' kn..nk pakai sudu segala..huwaaa...ayh ajr btol2.pegang sudu n garfu cane, gne pisau cane, jgn sampai gne sudu garfu kelentang kelentung cm perang..hah..ni la ayh ak.tp naseb baik ayh ajr cm2..kalo x..malo kowt nk masok mjlis skrg ni kalo xde bende2 tu sume..huhu

ni la gaye time ktorg mkn..hehe.ak ngn abg ak..comey gak eh bang time ko kecik?ak mmg comey..haha =p

ak mmg dr kecik ske pose..rse2 mke ak nih..ade berubah x..dr kecik smpai skrg??

comeynye ko ni dik...npe la skrg nih ko gelap semcm hah???

pe pon..sbb dorg strict la ktorg adk beradik alhamdulillah elok2 belaka..kalo xkne rotan dlu time kecik..ntah jdk tomboy gaknye ak nih..hahaha

****pasni ak cm nk wat entry psl abg ngn adk ak la..coz ridu r kt korg.abg..sila blk mesia cpt.adk..ko blk kn rye cine nih?jom mkn burger king..ke ko bz ngn pose ko as KP(ketua pengawas) tuh..haha =p

8 sebab ak kurus

2010-02-02T21:52:00.000-08:00

smlm..

ak baru je timbang berat ak kat gym

berat = maintain

lengan = mkin kecik 1 cm

pinggang = kecik 1 cm

butt = ntah..xpnh ukur plak sblom nih..haha

seyes..ak tensen

ble xg gym..body line sume lari

da la ak ni mslh btol nk mkn skang

slalu xde slera je

ak ni..kalo rmai2 smngt r ak mkn

ble sensorg gle mls nk mkn

mmg xde slera

kalo dlu bb rajin tmn ak mkn

berat ak naek..berat de pon naek..huhu

skrg??bb pon da jaoh..

xde sape kowt nk tmn ak mkn

parents??? DIET

so..endup ak pon turut berdiet..heh

kalo la bleh..

ak nk crk bf angkat xpon membe kamceng

yg kaki mkn..

ley le ak ajk merayap crk tmpt mkn best

bf tu function de juz tmn ak mkn

xde melibatkn perasaan dlmn occay..haha

GILE kowt ak nih

wateva..hee~

bdw ak kenal pasti sbb ak kurus
tp ak nih..xle kurus kering cm model nih..

genetik..ayh ak maintain je..xde r gemok n tinggi. yg ak dgr2 la kn..ayh ni darah jawa+arab. arwah atok orgnye tinggi n gagah perkasa mcm panglima..chewah..so..ak adk bradik mmg ikot ayh.slim2 but tinggi
ak xske mkn mknn yg lemak de over.as for eg..ak mmg xske mkn daging yg byk lemak..gear box segala..xde makne ak mkn..huhu
ak xske mkn telur kuning.reason??hanyir..urrrgghhhh..agk anti telur ak nih..
ak mkn ble ak lapa.xde mkne ak ske2 sumbat mulut ak ni ngn mknn ble ak xlapa.so..mkn ble lapa la kn
tp...ak ni sng lapa sbb tiap kali ak mkn..ak mkn ngn kuantiti yg sikit je.stakat knyg.xde la mentekedarah tiap kali ak mkn..huhu
ble mkn..ak kunyah pelan2.maksudnye..ak mkn slow beb..cm pengantin bak kate ayh ak.tp xle cm cover2..pebende..da ak suap kecik2..lmbt le abes nye. so..ikot research..kalo nk maintain badan..mkn slow2.bg mase kt mknn hadam.ni kalo mkn cm nk sumbat 1 pinggan dlm mulut xpon laju gle..xde makne la kowt nk maintain bdn.reseacher yg ckp.bkn ak..
ak ske msk..tp..mkn tu biase je.ak akn mkn byk ble rmai org.cm mkn reramai..ak mkn la byk.kalo ak sorg..xde mkne ak nk mkn byk [ak repeat ayt kt ats je..haha]
sbb last..da ak KURUS..pe nk kecoh?? [emosi sbb ske sgt kutuk2 ak kurus.org yg gemok xnk kutuk plak??ape ko ingt org kurus ni xde perasaan??]

panjang nye entry ak nih..haha

kesimpulannye..

redha je la dgn ciptaan Allah

nt ak kawen..ak make sure berat ak naek ye

pas2 xyh kecoh ckp ak gemok plak

ak backhand je nt.phm??!! [uurrrggghhh..emosi lg!]

juz..kne slalu g gym la kot

bg bdn sehat

nk shape tu ade la kn sbg sorg pompuan..

hah..ni la secrets ak..

2010-01-30T18:30:00.000-08:00

50 LITTLE SECRETS <-- copy dari blog wani..hehe~

[ONE] Who was your last text from?
:: bb

[TWO] Where was your default pic taken?
:: utm (konvo)

[THREE] Your relationship status
:: bb punye (tp xkompem ag kowt..haha =p)

[FOUR] Have you ever lost a close friend?
:: hmm..yup

[FIVE] What is your current mood?
:: boring

[SIX] Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
:: asyraf & syafiq

[EIGHT] Where do you wish you were right now?
:: ..istana kayangan..heh

[NINE] Have a crazy side?
:: very yes!

[TEN] Ever had a near death experience?
:: yup..

[ELEVEN] Something you do a lot?
:: dreaming

[TWELVE] Angry at anyone?
:: skrg??xde

[THIRTEEN] What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
:: my status

[FOURTEEN] When was the last time you cried?
:: 2 3 hr lps kowt..

[FIFTEEN] Is there anyone you would do anything for?
:: yeah

[SIXTEEN] Who do you think about when you are falling asleep?
:: nobody (kunun2 nk dpt tido yg bekualiti la..)

[SEVENTEEN] Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
:: bb

[EIGHTEEN] What is your favorite song?
:: sempurna by andra n d blackbone (bb ske nyanyi lgu ni tok ak)

[NINETEEN] What are you doing right now?
:: duhh...typing la kn..

[TWENTY] Who do you trust right now?
:: nobody

[TWENTY-ONE] Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
:: adik punye

[TWENTY-TWO] Have you kissed someone last week?
:: some1?nope..smthing yeay..bebear n patty

[TWENTY-THREE] Who is your friend that lives closest to you?
:: fana

[TWENTY-FOUR] Describe your life in one word?
:: LONELY..being d only daughter not d bes thing in my life..buhsan

[TWENTY-FIVE] Who are you thinking of right now?
:: bb..every n each second thinking bout him

[TWENTY-SIX] What should you be doing right now?
:: mandi..haha

[TWENTY-SEVEN] What are you listening to?
:: bunyi kipas

[TWENTY-EIGHT] Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
:: eerrr...ayah kowt

[TWENTY-NINE] Who was the last person who yelled at you?
:: sape ag..pompuan kt opis tu lah

[THIRTY] Do you act differently around the person you like?
:: act cm biase je kowt..

[THIRTY-ONE] What is your natural hair color?
:: itam

[THIRTY-TWO] Who was the last person to make you laugh
:: bb

[THIRTY-THREE] Who was the last person to make you sad?
:: bb jgk

[THIRTY-FIVE] Is your hair curly or straight?
:: kne reveal ke??

[THIRTY-SIX] Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
:: hmm..yup..hehe

[THIRTY-SEVEN] Do you have a best friend?
:: ade kowt

[THIRTY-EIGHT] Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
:: yup..heh

[THIRTY-NINE] Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
:: yup..

[FORTY] Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
:: hell..yeah..!!hahaha =p

[FORTY-ONE] Are you happy with life right now?
:: boley la...juz lonely je..

[FORTY-TWO] Are you currently jealous?
:: yup! jeles tgk org da kawen..hehe

[FORTY-THREE] What jewelry are you currently wearing?
:: nothing..xmnt segala jewelry..

[FORTY-FOUR] What were you doing Friday night?
:: tido

[FORTY-FIVE] Have you ever had your heart broken?
:: huh..yup! cte lme..mls r nk ingt

[FORTY-SIX] Have you ever broken someone's heart?
:: huhu..yup..so sori..doesnt mean tu hurt him..xmatured ag je time tu.really appreciate ur luv..

[FORTY-SEVEN] Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
:: seyesly yes!yes!yes!

[FORTY-EIGHT] What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
:: period pain yg telampau..gle r skt de..

[FORTY-NINE] How late did you stay up last night and why?
:: xde nye ak nk stay up..tdo lg best..hehe

[FIFTY]Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
:: yup! in fact..till 2day..we've been 2gether 4 2yrs 5months 1week n 4days..luv u bb =)

suicide

2010-01-29T05:07:00.000-08:00

penah dgr x..??

ade org..rse lonely gle..

smpai nk commit suicide?

sbb ak..

mmg tgh rse bosan n lonely gle..!

da la stres n tensen cm thp angkasa kt opis

blk umah cm xde sape plak nk sembang

bf ak pon mlm2 dok bz

ak tau la de usaha nk crk wet tok mse depan ktorg gak kn

tp smpai cani gle r ak

bosan beb!!

n ak pnh tepkr nk carik spare

ye!!

S.P.A.R.E @ TEMAN TP MESRA

tu mmg ak akui la

bende plg bodoh ak pnh pkr!

GILE!

ak syg de ape..CINTA lg

mne ley betray de!

TP AK LONELY!!!!!

seyes!

LONELY SMPAI RSE NK MATI!

bertukar!!!

2010-01-13T00:20:00.000-08:00

rase mcm byk je bende nk cte kt cni..

tp mls nk type..huhu

kalo la ak ckp je then keyboard ni ley gerak sendiri ikot pe yg ak ckp kn best...

kt blog ni la ak nk luahkn pe yg ak rse

coz smtimes blk umah nk story morie ngn ibu n ayh

dorg xde plak kt umah..kuar..

bb plak da 2 3 hr ni mlm2 pon bz

sian bb..ak rse nk majok gak

tp jgn la eah..bb pon mst tensen

kalo eah majok,bb lg tensen..

so end-up ak xcte kt sape2 n simpan sendiri jew

kdg2 cte kt fana..

xpe r..cte kt blog je la eh..ok blog??

monday n tuesday..ade SIRIM audit

sgt tensen coz mmg tensen la

auditor tu pd ak gle kurang ajar la

byk je ak jmpe auditor2 luar ni

even ade sorg foreign auditor pon behemah je bhs

mls r nk cte psl die lg..wat darah ak naek je..huhu

selasa tu pon suppose ade meetin ngn dato'..by department

tiap2 department kne ngadap dato'

tp department ak..QA/QC postpone next week. xsempat..

CPD sempat r..n x ak sangke2

dorg dok dizcuz psl ak..YES...ME!!!

dato' transfer ak dpd QC ke R&D

wowwwww...tekejot gle

reason nye...'i xnk farihah wat keje2 bodo (documentation la kn..)..i nk die masok R&D eh'

ok2..no wonder la confirmation letter ak xdpt2 ag..ni la ghupenye yg di revise kn

me QC--->R&D

bak kte secretary dato'..xpenah2 org tukar department..hahahaha

thanx dato'!!!! i'm very honored to join R&D..coz i xmnt documentation..hehe~~

tp..sian r kt tech ak..da xde bos..huhu..hope dorg ok dgr berite ni nt..

coz dorg baek...ajr ak mcm2..hope ak xle cm kacang lupekn kulit nt..

nope2..ak bina tapak kt company ni dpd dorg..so..jgn abaikan dorg k..

lg 1..after 8 months as QA/QC exec..ak nk tukar pale otk ak ni ke R&D gak

start dpd awl to beb..from 000 tuh..mak aih..penin2..

tp xpe2!!!eah booooleehhh!!!!

ok..ak da penat type..tp byk ag nih nk cte kt blog

xpe r..nt sambong..huhu =p

2010-01-11T16:45:00.000-08:00

i cried all nite..

till i fall asleep

reason??

i've made him cried

sbb..eah 'selfish'

yeke?

i juz want smbdy i can talk to

share ape yg ade kt hati ni

juz smtimes u juz have to keep it by urself

xyh share kot eah

kn ko da biase pendam je

so..

rse nye xde masalah kot kalo pendam lg

jika...

jika 1 hari nnt ak xde kt bumi Allah ni

sesape yg tebace entry ni..

please..

please tell him

I LOVE HIM

wif all of my heart

ak dlm dilema~

2010-01-08T00:00:00.000-08:00

xsangke ak skrg ni kne pkr suatu yg sgt2 penting
penting utk kehidupan ak yg mendatang
kdg2 ble ak da pnt sgt pkr..ak rse..
'owh...sonok nye jdk kanak2..'
xpyh pkr sampai cani skali

dlm setiap solat aku..
ak sentiase bedoa..moga dipermudahkan segala urusan duniawi ak..apetah lg ukhrawi
adekah ape yg berlaku skrg ini merupakan slh 1 petunjuk dr Yg Maha Esa
petunjuk bahawa kehidupan ak akn berubah dlm mase tedekat ni
ak kdg2 konfius..
konfius sama ade ape yg berlaku skrg ni adelah 1 petunjuk yg baek @ pon x
sape ak insan & makhluk Allah yg lemah nk mempertikaikn kuase Allah

ape yg ak harapkan..
setiap keputusan yg ak buat nnt..
adelah yg tebaek utk ak..utk org sekililing ak yg ak syg

dan kalau pon ak tepakse terima keputusan yg org lain buat utk ak..yg mane ia nya sgt menyedihkan ak..

tabahkan hati ak ya Allah..pinjam kn sedikit kekuatan utk ak tempuhi hidup ini..hanya engkau tau ape yg tebaek utk ak..ak pohon ya Allah..

dan sekiranye ape yg tegerak di hati ak ini adelah yg tebaek utk ku..maka kekalkn la kebahagiaan kami ya Allah..tiade ape yg ak minta selaen kebahagiaan dan keredhaan dr Mu ya Allah..

l.i.f.e

2010-01-07T19:27:00.000-08:00

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it

Life is beauty, admire it

Life is bliss, taste it

Life is a dream, achieve it

Life is a challenge, meet it

Life is a duty, complete it

Life is a game, play it

Life is promise, fulfill it

Life is sorrow, overcome it

Life is a song, sing it

Life is struggle, accept it

Life is tragedy, confront it

Life is an adventure, dare it

Life is luck, make it

Life is too precious, do not destroy it

Life is life, fight for it

~ Mother Theresa

2010-01-05T19:19:00.000-08:00

last sunday morning (3rd Jan 2010)

arrived from teluk intan at 4.30 am

1st experience naek bas jaoh2 sorg2

tp..tido je pon kt dlm bas tu

4th Jan 2010

ibu called..she asked bout bb..

ok ke x..

then ibu ckp ibu n ayah nk g honeymoon

...???

confius jp..again???

bkn last 2 yrs baru g ke..Australia lg

nk pegi lg?

ok naseb baek cameron jew..but still same la kn

tggl kn me alone..ALONE

no adk (adk da blk Samura) n for sure no bb (da kt penang)

OMG...stress nye rase..

ok2..i've got fana, kak un n jiha

but they have their own life kn

kak un n jiha bz ngn master

sian sgt kt dorg..huhu

n now..im alone

sgt bosan..seyes bosan

kt rmh sorg2..xkn le xbosan kowt

some may say..

'kawin cpt eah..kalo xnk sorg2..'

duuhh...ak pown tau..

kalo kt dlm bank ak tu da ade 30k..

lame da ak kawen..

at diz moment..i've no choice

have to be strong n selambe la kowt

even dok sorg2 but wat je la mcm xde perasaan

it's not 'xbleh independent' matter ok..

it's juz..bosan dok umah SORG2 occay...

***emotional entry..huhu

2010-01-04T19:20:00.000-08:00

ble nk renew resolution ni eah??

ble2???

kne list kn ok..baru clear...

xkire..!!!

kne gak crk mase

list kn ur targets 4 2010

2010-01-03T20:39:00.000-08:00

I HATE HER.

FULL STOP.TITIK.NOKTAH.

2009-12-31T00:50:00.000-08:00

Application for leave (1st Jan 2010) - approved.bos ckp..nk cuti?cuti la..tenang2 kn fikiran awk tu..thanx bos!!

Replacement for yr end stocks take - found.abg amin..syukur!!

Ticket - bought.10.45 am..JB-Teluk Intan

Packing - not done yet..mlm kang..

Buah tangan - lom beli ag..beli ape eh??

wateva it is..i'm going to enjoy my weekend!! pegi beach ngn bb..jumpe future parents in-law..owwhh scary nyew..huhu

diz is the time 4 me to RELAX!!!!yeay babe..

2009-12-29T20:04:00.000-08:00

- ma fwen engagement -

26th Dec 2009..was my besty engagement day..

dr jb pukul 9 then arrived at 11 am

time tu 'die' tgh sibuk siapkn hantaran lg..huhu

sian de..nmpk penat..

nsb baek rmai dayang2 tolong..hehe

sementara 2ngu 'die' disarungkn cincin

ktorg pon amek la pics

n ak..dok layan seha yg mmg dok pegang camera jew..haha

pose no. 1 : me melayan seha..kain yg tutup muka tu actually alas dulang hantaran sebenarnye..haha

pose no.2: seha soh nyorok blakang langsir..

pose 3: budak ni cute..so adorable..hope my son will be like him..heehee~ =p

pose 4: mcm 1 big hepi family jew..huhu~

pose 5 : pas 'die' sarung cincin..ak dok ats kusi n 'die' dok besila kt bwh begosip..haha

hantaran P to L..11 dulang tuh..theme..orange

hantaran L to P..9 dulang.theme black n white..

xphm pe motif yanti sebenarnye..haha..[sori dear..=p]

lbey krg kol 5 kami blk Jb..

sblum blk..kami 'dibekalkn' ngn daun sireh junjung..

macik pesan..

blk..selawat..mandi..naek kn seri pengantin tu..hehe

ble blk umah..

cte kt ayh n ibu..then dorg ckp..

'aah..mmg ade petua tu..org dlu2 salu pesan cm2..'

ooo...mmg ade eh..baru 1st time tau..

kalo ak tau..dpd dlu asl cousin ak kawen je

ak amek sireh junjung dorg..wat mandi..haha

lastly..

to 'die'..congrats k..pasni mkn nsk myk ko lak..huhu

pasni..waiting 4 my other besty engagement plak..

so sape nk tunang ke kawen ke..rojer2 la ak ye

kalo diizinkn ak smpai umah kowg..heehee~

'die' refers to my fwen tu la..sori..xley kecoh2 ats pemintaan empunya bdn..hehe~

~ usha barang kawen part II ~

2009-12-23T05:21:00.000-08:00

wedding (yg ak dok berangan)

budget : RM20k-30k..mhl nye weh..huhu~ rse nye cm lebey je nih..huhu.

color : ntah..xpkr lg.. - mst match ngn kaler kulit ak yg kuning cm org skt kuning nih..

fashion : xtau ag..ntah lee..pape la yg match ngn ak..yg kurus kering nih..height : 161 cm weight : 40+ [secret..haha]. if..if la kn..ak ni ank tan sri ke xpon duit da telebey sgt..ak hire Rizalman Ibrahim (RI) as ak nye wedding planner. everything on him.dpd hantaran, baju, pelamin, blk pengantin n bla..bla..bla sume ak mntk de wat.tp mst main idea tu dpd ak la kn..RI tlg jdk kn idea n berangan ak tu jdk kenyataan..hehe [berangan lg]

venue : leisure farm resort, gelang patah, johor. ak mmg sgt3 nk wat wedding ak kt cni..full wif fresh roses..bungalow de tu..cm castle..ala2 fairy tale gitu. besnyee kalo dpt wat kt cni.ibu..plezz..ask ur fwen kt s2..mne la tau kn kot2 bley wat kt s2..huhu

ok da..stop3..

ckp2 r tu kn berangan..

berangan xnk cm poyo plak kn..haha

alaaa...pe salahnye berangan..bkn keje ak xsiap pon kalo berangan..haha =p

terima kasih Allah

2009-12-21T20:12:00.000-08:00

Friday..

25th Dec 2009

0730 am
Senai Airport

cant wait for diz moment

ibu n ayah blk dr mekah

syukur alhamdulillah ya Allah..

for giving me strength

utk pegang responsibility yg ibu/ayah amanahkn

jage adk..jge rmh..hal2 rmh..tusen centre ayh..

n all other things

walopon kdg2 tu rase mcm xmampu dah

tetekan..sedih..risau

tp ak tau

Allah sentiase ade menemani ak

terima kasih Allah..

~usha barang kawen~

2009-12-15T00:20:00.001-08:00

ntah nape...

lately ak gile usha anything yg berkaitan wedding preparation..

actually not necessarily wedding..engagement pown..

dua2 la sng ckp..

as i've mentioned..ak ni mmg ske berangan

well skrg ni i always imagine wat color suit me very well n how much should i spend for my engagement n wedding..

ble da keje..mmg ni la yg org slalu pkr..[utk org yg nk kawen cpt la kot cm ak..heee~]

pkr how much should i save for my wedding..for my future..

n untk pkr bape byk kne save..ak pkr la type cane engagement or wedding ak nt

is it simple or mcm wedding of d yr..~~

yg ak imagine kn~

Engagement

budget (wet ak la..) : RM 1000-1500 (ciput je..wat pe byk2..huhu)

color : white + sweet pink

fashion : modern kurung or kurung pahang + sulam manik @ swarzrosky(kalo $$$ lebey)

material : viscose silk or chiffon

pelamin : yes/no (depends on parents nk ke x...)

hantaran : 5 bb, 7 eah. consist of cuppies, chocolate, kemeja, sireh junjung, fruit@dried fruit, food...n food (xtau lg 2 nk bg pe)

makeup : by makeup artist (dila ramli @ gee cantik @ sue makeup)..kne fussy ni..sgt benci tgk org makeup cm opera cina..

date : ntah..berangan je nih..hahaha

~~baju tunang nih...nt ak carry forward (pakai) time khatam quran kawen nt..haaa..jimat ape..recycle je blk..haha

credited to Rizalman..ske gle design ni..huhu

~sample pelamin la kot..bleh la kalo nk gmbr2..hehe

Wedding

budget : RM20k-30k..mhl nye weh..huhu~

color : ntah..xpkr lg..

fashion..pon ntah..alaaaa...sng ckp ak xpkr nk wat ktne n wat so eva.juz pkr budget byk tu je..no lebey..kalo nk vogue pnye wedding..ibu, ayah, abg plez tmbh ok..eah kalo bley nk wedding simple je but sweet n memorable la of cozzzz,,~

ooowwwhhhh...nape la ak ske berangan..???cm xde keje len la..haha

but bb ckp..

'its ok syg..xpe la berangan..ble kte berangan kte akn aim smthing n we wish wat we dream of 2 akn jdk kenyataan kn..soo..ble kte da rse cm2..insyaAllah kte lg semangat nk dpt kn bende tu n usaha kte pon lebey la nt..so..dare 2 dream n try 2 achieve wat we dream of..~'

emmm...thanx so much dear..nsb baek bb phm yg eah ske berangan..

kalo x..mau kne gelak je ngn de..haha

wateva pon..mmg kami usaha nk move 1 step forward in our relationship

bak kte ayh n ibu..kalo bleh..jgn becinta n tunang tu lme2

xmanis..n xelok..

islam pon kn ske perkahwinan..

which is d best for couple

sebagaimana firman Allah SWT

'Sebahagian daripada tanda- tanda kebesaran Allah bahawa ia menjadikan bagi diri kamu pasangan supaya kamu dapat hidup harmoni disampingnya dan allah menjadikan dengan sebabnya kasih sayang dan rahmat sesunguhnya pada demikian itu menjadi tanda bagi kaum yang berfikir...'

pendengki terulung

2009-12-09T20:53:00.000-08:00

ak mmg da di jangkiti penyakit mls..

mls nk tulis blog..huhu

ak sgt2 xphm ble ade org dengki gle kt ak

seyes ak xphm n xpenah phm

ngape ntah dengki sgt kt ak

n beria2 sgt nk sekat peluang ak..

xphm sungguh..!!!

kalo la bleh...ni yg ak nk ckp kt org tuh..

plez la weh..

ko lg senior dpd ak pe..

pebende yg ko nk kalot sgt

xde nye ak nk fight ngn ko

kalo ko nk sgt..amek ok..wat la keje2 tu

ak lg xkesa..ak ley lepak2..men fb..blogging

ko nk tensen sowg2 peduli ape ak

pastu...kalo tetbe ko da xmampu nk wat sorg..

jgn mintk tolong ak ok

NO!!! ko wat sendiri

kate hebat gle..pehal nk mntk tolong ak..

nt kang nmpak cm ko tu lemah plak

bkn ko xnk org len nmpk kelemahan ko kew???

sooo...kesimpulan nye..

plez jgn poyo sgt ok..

mls nk layan ko..huh!!

oowwwhhh...pendengki terulung..!!!

ak xkaco idop ko...ko jgn kaco idop ak leh x?????

JAKARTA~

2009-10-01T19:11:00.000-07:00

diz week..sebok dgn induction n orientation..n jugak kecoh psl spe yg nk kne anta g Jakarta..
huru-hara ak tgk..kecoh plak konon2 nme ak dlm list yg akn dianta ke sne..
so..wat do i feel??biase je
mmb btol..kalo ak pegi sne ni la start-up career ak
for sure la in polymer or sng nye plastic industry
it's juz..ak ready ke nk dok jaoh dpd family, frens n hubby
mayb kalo salary pon increase ok la kot
if not..then cane la ak nk ulang alik jakarta<-> jb
plg x pon..every month nk gak blk umah
jmpe parents, jmpe hubby
pe pon..
juz doa la yg terbaek utk hdup ak..ameen~

::seminggu sblom raye::

2009-09-17T20:11:00.000-07:00

this week..sgt la hectic..
seyes bz gle..najib (my assistant) da start cuti since tuesday
pas2 bleh plak amoi sorg tu tbe2 xnk dtg..haih..ak sorg je la
exec yg tggl mse tu..
gle la bz kn..smpai cm nk nangis je rse coz everybody dok call n nk itu n ini..
plus..report Dr Azli soh wat n de bg mse smpai jumaat xsentuh pon ag..
perrggghhh...gle la tensen
lom ag memo dpd Dato'..haih..mcm2..

tok rye plak..seyes xprepare pape pon tok me myself..
even sandle pon xbli..wat happen la eah..xde mood langsung nk besoping
g gak angsana n jusco..but at d end..blk tgn kosong..xbli pape pon..haha
juz ade la tempah biscuits, kerepek n kek lapis nk bg mak mentua..heeee~

wednesday nite..hubby blk perak..sob3..
mlm tu ak ngan abg g anta eg(hubby) kt sri putri
sian kt b nk bwk blk brg2 yg ak kirim ~ kuih rye,kepek n kek lapis tu la kn
bkn ape..setau ak bakal mak mentua ak ske kek lapis asam tu..
so..ak pon bli la tok de 1..
sedey ble b blk umah..huuhuu
ak xtau npe..tp ak mmg la honestly xleh jaoh ngan de
start la ssh nk senyum..xbyk ckp n cm nk demam
pehal ntah..seyes ak rse ak ni cm ngade gle
ak xleh byg kn kalo long-distance relationship cm wani n man
haih..mau gle ak..xpon mata bengkak2 coz nangis hr2
pas2..kalo benar n btol la ak akn dihantar ke bandung utk setup new factory kt sne..
huuuu..cane la idop ak jaoh ngan b
sedey2..da..da..mls nk pkr
b pesan..'xpe..kte tgk je nnt..juz ikot flow..jgn pkr2 sgt..'
tp..ak ttp gak tepkr coz as i said ak xleh jaoh ngan de..
ble jaoh2..ak rse cm lonely gle..
tp slame ni pon mmg b yg byk teman
g mkn,g bli brg, bwk g doctor time skt, g dentist time pkai braces dlu, g soping rye..
mcm2 la..hmm..

saat ni..ak rse sgt2 beruntung coz ade nye Mohd Faizi Arif bin Mohd Hizam dlm idop ak
bg ak kasih syg..menggantikan kasih syg arwah ibu yg ak xdpt dlu..
hanya Allah je yg tau betape ak hrp sgt dpt together ngan de smpai akhr hayat ak
luv u b~

lagu raye lagu cinta + gamba konvo yg buruk

2009-09-11T22:18:00.000-07:00

next week da rye..next week tu..
tp cam xprepare pape pon
xg shopping pon..in fact xtepikir pon thn ni baju rye nk kaler ape..haha..bengong le eah nih..

lagu rye da start byk da kuar kt radio..
juz ak xphm gle ble ade lagu yg konon2 nye lagu rye tp cm lagu rock ade,lagu cinta pon ade
haih..aneh gle..ak dgr kt hot fm la lgu tuh..
oleh kerana ak nk timbulkn perasaan n jiwa nk beraye..ak pon dgr sinar je r..
sbb kt s2 byk lagu rye lme2..lagu yg ble dgr..feeling habes nk rye..huhuu

lagu2 lme best

ahmad jais-selamat hari raya
aisyah-pulanglah di hari raya
amansha-pulanglah di hari raya
black dog bones-cahaya aidilfitri
d.j dave-mejelang hari raya
fazidah joned-selamat hari raya
junainah-suasana riang di hari raya

lagu baru yg best

siti nurhaliza-nazam lebaran n byk r..xingt title..heeehee

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ok2 enough la psl lagu raye..
smlm gamba konvo dpd utm baru dpt..
pergghhhh...gle la buruk kn..
angle xcantek langsung
seyes buruk
kate professional..pebende..
seyes la..buruk..mata ak cm tdo kt atas stage tu.tu mmg slh ak la kn
tp angle de tu..alaaaa...buruk beno..haih..nt nk upload kt blog
spe yg bce post ni sila la judge kn..huh
sng ckp xyh le behabes rm45 konon nk gmba atas stage..xperlu ok..
coz seyes rse cm membazir..huuuhuu
xjdk nk gantung kt hall time rye..simpan dlm laci xpon gantung dlm bilik jew suda..huuuu~

::ak=QC exec+bisness shawl::

2009-09-10T05:42:00.000-07:00

da 3 bln da ak keje..da nk masuk 4 bln da pon..
next week dorg yg da keje lme dpt bonus..half month..
walopn 1/2 je...tp..pd ak da ckup bemakne..
juz ak xdpt ag la coz xkompem ag..huhu

hr ni gak ak leh menangis teresak2 kt toilet coz ak bengang ble
npe eh...jdk QC nih mmg slalu kne fire nganorg ke hape?
ak diminta tok setel kn quality probs..
ble ak setelkn..bknnye nk terima ksh..ni mrh2 lg ade
seyes r ak xpaham culture ape kt opis ak nih
nk kte org melayu..stau ak malay ni kn sopan santun..ini..da la xreti nk beterima ksh..
siap fire2 aklg..haih..mcm2..

ak ade apply tutor uthm..tp kn..xtau le leh dpt ke x coz pointer ak 3.47 jew..hahahaha
ade hati seyh ak ni nk jdk tutor..haha
ak juz try la kn..mne tau kot2 rzki ade..jdk la ak tutor n kuar r ak dpd irm yg aneh tu..haaa..ak ske

ok..cte plak psl blog bisnes ak..ni yg lawak nih..hr ni brochure ak da ditampal kt block2 n kafe yg patot..
honestly..ak cm malu gle..hua333..ak xtau npe..
ak rse cm aneh je..walopn la kt brochure tu xde pon picture ak..tp kalo da kt blog tu tepampang mke ak..haih..sehngal btol le eah ni..
pasni...nengok le..kalo ak rse nk tayang muke ni ak tayang la..kalo x...nmpk side blakang je la..hahah
hopefully..bisnes ak ni maju..sekurang2 nye..leh le tmbh saving wat kawen nt...hikhik..

bisnes????hmmm...ntah le..

2009-09-03T01:13:00.000-07:00

ok..
xtau npe mmg mls sgt nk update blog??
huh...wat happen to me...ok2..da dijangkiti penyakit malas..
wateva la kan..

ape ye yg terbaru..
k...i'm going to have my own bisness
hahaha
cm nk gelak guling2...
bisnes pe??shawls...hmmmm sbb...sy suuuke pkai shawl
n sy suuuuukeeeee berangan
hua3

tp...xtau le same ade sempat ke x nk berbisnes coz lately very la bz kt opis nih
ble blk umah...cm da penat gle
gym pon da bezaman xg..body line pon mmg da lari abes
mmg huduh jer rse...huhu
tp kalo bleh...nk gak bisnes coz keje kat opis ni xbes..
i wanna find smthing which can makes me hepi..
ok...xyah hepi sgt pon at least hepi la sket..hua3
so...bisnes hepi kot kn
lg pon...i luv smthing yg looks nice,sweet,gorgeous...
shawl la kot...haaaaaaa!!!!!ntah leeeeee!!!!!

ape yg eah nk ni sebenornye???
ha???ha??
haih...bengong...
nk kawen jer kot..hahahaha
melalut lg
huuuuu ;p

2009-07-28T21:04:00.000-07:00

hmm...
mmg sah2 ak boring gle kt opis..lately byk report nk kne setel disamping trobleshooting other problems.
well...ape yg ak bleh ckp..di saat umor ak yg ak kira sebegitu muda ni..keje ni mmg byk mengajar ak ttg kehidupan..reality yg sebenar2 nye ttg hidup.

bagos nye keje ni..:
1) make me more mature. in term of mature dlm nk mengenal behaviour2 manusia..dlu mse blaja OB kat u slalu pkr ade ke perangai manusia cani..n skrg ble da keje, teori2 yg Pn Syikin ajr tu tlh ak pelajari practically..mengadap ragam2 manusia yg kdg2 sgt annoying n membengangkn.tp..ble jmp perangai2 yg pelik2 ni..fun jugak..yela..life ni jdk mcm interesting..hehe

2) ble keje jdk kn ak lebih seyes meng 'arrange'kn kehdpn ak..lbh focus..meaning ak pkr ape yg ak nk ade dlm idup ni sbnrnye..ape yg ak nk?for my career, my family n my personal life..nk kawen ble eh sbnrnye??heee~

3) pas2...the most important thing..keje ni mendidik ak jd sorg yg lebih penyabar..ape yg org wat kt kte tu try utk saba..saba je..slagi bleh saba mmg kne saba.tp kalo xbleh saba tu takot gak kalo ak meletup cm volcano..hua3

4) keje dpt $$$..best sket la..tp sblum dpt tu tensen nye cm hape ntah..tp standard la tu kn..huhuu

k...enough psl keje..boring..
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lately...ak slalu sgt berangan..eh lately ke??x...x..ak kn mmg type yg ske gle berangan..hua3.xtau npe r..ske gle berangan..hehe.antara yg pernah ak angan2 kn..hehe (pengakuan bertaip ni..)

time kecik2:

1) ak penah berangan stay kt bulan.sje...terapung2 kt space tu..pergh..cm syok gle..

bestnyee kalo dpt dok bulan..

2) ak berangan nk jdk stewardess sbb best dpt jln2.tp ble pkr2 blk xleh pakai 2dung xpe la..lupe kn je..huhu

3) ak penah berangan n becte2 nk lari dpd umah..mase tu kne mrh ngan ayah coz racing basikal.mse tu ak dok Cheras..yela..racing basikal ngn membe along..blk tu sdp r kne rotan..huhu

4) penah berangan nk belasah sorg budak pompuan jiran ak mse dok cheras dlu..xske r ngan bdk tu.da r ske nangis, pas2 ske ngadu plak tu.leceh..cm bengang gle.mls nk maen ngan de.xske..lembut sgt..

5)emm...pe lagi eh..haaa...mse kecik2 penah berangan nnt da besar nk wat kn rumah bsr2 tok ibu n ayah..tp..da bsr skrg ni..perlu ke??nt spe nk duduk??huhu

time da bsr (angan2 yg ter latest r...)

1) ak becte2 nk tulis buku..psl life..xpon wat novel ke..nt ak gne nme 'fara sareera'..hmmm best gak..tp...mslhnye..ak ni xde bkt r nk tulis2 buku ni.literature time skola pon ckup2 mkn je..cane nk tulis buku..huhu

2) ak becte2 nk jdk model muslimah..ske r org make-up kn kte cntik2 pas2 pkai bju cntik2..ape yg ak ske psl modelling ni..sorg model tu sure de mempunyai self confidence yg sgt tggi n luv themself more then i do..ak xkte la ak ni xske ngan diri snditi..i know..everybody has their own uniqueness.juz ape ye unik nye ak??hua3

3) ak bcte2 nk wat bisnes.bisnes pe xtau lg..xsure r..ak ske fesyen but xbpe tau nk berfesyen..yela..ak ni kn sempoi je org nye. ak ske bakery especially wat cake..bisnes cake pon ok gak kn??heee~.bkk boutique ke..hua3..berangan gle..

4) ak berangan nk kawen lg 2 taun..tp xtau la terxcapai ke x coz duit xcukup lg..kne plak kalo kawen ni bkn sket gne..mau 20K kne ade..ntah ble gak nye leh kawen.ak bkn ape..ble kawen ni ak nk wat pe yg ak xleh wat mse single.ak nk midnight ayh xkasi..ak nk travel..mayb ble da kawen ak leh la wat bende2 tu sume..sbb da org org jaga..hua3.mayb la kn...

5) ak berangan nk sambung master kt overc..australia ke..pas2 stay kat sne dlu..xyah la migrate kn..tp keje jp la kt sne.emm...tp..pointer degree ak ni leh ke dpt g ovrc..huhu

6)....pe lg eh...hmmm ntah..ni je la yg ak ingt.nt kalo ade angan2 len..leh la wat 'angan2 eah part 2'..hua333

2009-06-27T18:25:00.000-07:00

blog ni menjadi tempat tok aku luah kan rasa hati...
meluahkan ape yg tersimpan..
hepi,sedih, ketika xde perasaan or...confius ngan feeling sendiri..
walopon mase spm BM xdpt A1..tp juz essay2 ringan ok la kot..hee
hmmm...penah berangan nk tulis buku..but i dont think im suit to be a writer or author
bcoz...sometimes i think i cant interpret my feelings into words..xreti nk luahkan perasaan ni
ble ade nye new post that means mood mengarang, menulis n menaip have come together..heeehee
tp kdg2 tu merepek2 je aku ni..juz like wat i said..blog ni kn tempat luah kan perasaan..juz like dustbin yg terima je ape org masukkn dlm de..
sekurang2 nye xla kne depression coz pendam jerk perasaan tu..
haaa...tgk...kn mrepek lg..huh...wat eva la eah..janji hepi
heheee

2009-06-25T21:56:00.000-07:00

alhamdulillah..
da sebulan aku keja kat cni..
precisely 1 month n 7 days..
yesterday..i got my 1st salary..the feeling was awesome..
huh...xdpt digambarkan ngn kate2 ble dpt tu...syukur sgt + hepi gle + proud gak coz dpt bertahan kt cni..

this week da stat bz..
not very bz but i got things to do rather than duduk n round lab cari ape nk wat
i have monthly report, specification analysis, n calibration list to be completed..nmpk mcm sket..
tp...bleh thn la jgk..
nk kate aku ske wat keja2 ni tipu la kn..
coz aku ni bkn jenis yg mnt ngan documentation ni..booorriing
but wat can i do??wat je laa..coz da tu keja aku..walopon aku xbpe ske pon ngan title QC executive tu..kalo nk kira xske n boring..sampai ke sudah aku mudy n xsemangat nk wat keja..at last xperform..huhuuu..

so...aku pon wat jela keja2 yg ade..ni pon pas aku korek2 ape la yg aku leh wat..
skali da dpt korek..haaaa...amek...byk plak yg kne wat
hmmm...xpe laa..aslkan aku ade benda nk wat dpt mkn gaji buta..
xnk le cm2..

ble fkr2 blk..npe eh Allah tetapkan aku untuk pegang position ni..
ape sbenornye ade pd diri aku ni..there always be a reason ble satu2 benda tu Allah tetapkan
tp sbg hambaNya..redha je la pd qada' dan qadar yg Allah da tetapkan..
n sebagai manusia..usaha la selagi mampu
kdg2 tu mmg rase down...bcoz deep down inside my heart i dont know whether i can face through all this things..ntah la..
penah..1 hari tu aku terasa sgt2 down n i cried..terasa mcm xde mase depan je keja kt cni..
yela..i dont know want i can get from here..skill ape yg aku leh improve..
communication skill, presentation skill, english...sume cm xnmpak leh improve kt cni..
sedih btol..
maybe i've to give more time to myself..
relax..slowly..juz follow the flow..xpayah nk kalut2 n rush2 sgt..
insysAllah..Allah akan bantu slagi aku berusaha
wat should i do for the meantime..
juz work n try harder..then pray..
insyaAllah..everythning will be better..
ameen..

2009-06-12T01:28:00.000-07:00

da lme sgt xbkk blog ni..

rase mcm malas nk menaip..hehe

well..aku da keja dkt sebulan da..
aku xtau la pe yg aku rase..sronok ke x keja kt s2..
honestly..xbpe sronok la..sbb..sbb xtau nk xplain mcm mane..
huh...dugaan..

sometimes i feel a bit lost..
everything is new to me..i've very basic knowledge about polymer..pvc especially
yela..blaja dlu pon time subject consumer je..tu pun ciput je la
ble masuk keja sure kena blaja..i dont mind coz im willing to learn..
juz to lead senior employees kat department tu is not easy..kena plak im only 21 yrs
yg kt s2 almost 50..woww...very challenging

kt s2..org2 nye peramah2..all the technicians i mean..quite supportive i think
juz aku xtau cane nk tackle sorg amoi ni..amoi??nope...aunt lg sesuai kot..
well..suppose aku ni under her supervision..be my mentor..teach me n guide me as im new there
assuming that i know nothing..my HOD da serah kan aku kat de supaya de dpt la bimbing aku pape yg patut..
xplain to me my job scope..wat should i know n wat should i do..
but she never teach me..never..melaenkan aku wat bodo menempel kt tepi de n see wat she's doing.then ble aku tny de ngan selamba nye jwb dgn sgt la laju..ooo my!!!cane aku nk phm..
saba je la aku..

da dkt sebulan aku kt s2..penin gle..penin pkr strategy mcm mane nk tau byk benda within 3 months..if possible..nk la confirm dlm mase 3 bln tu..provision period 6 months..xkn 6 bulan baru nk confirm..
so..aku pon terkorek2 la meraba2 mencari ape yg patut..tny org sane ty org cni..i dont want people think yg aku ni xlayak to be a leader..usaha selagi boleh..n aku xnk rase yg aku ni makan gaji buta coz xwat pape..nk wat ape??she never assign me any task walopon HOD da beri arahan..
reasons y she does diz to me??sbb...she dont want to resign..xnk pencen la senang ckp..
if she teach me then aku tau nk wat..de terpakse la pencen..so..de xnk la..yg jd mangsa spe??aku jugak..Ya Allah...saba je la..

so..for the meantime..ape yg aku leh wat..wat selamba je la..tahan saba..blaja sendiri..lg pon technician2 kt s2 baek2..mane yg dorg leh ajar aku..aku korek dpd dorg..selebihnye..nnt la pkr..
ni pon da migrain da asyk pkr ape yg aku patut wat..

Ya Allah..bagi la kesabaran yg tinggi untuk menghadapi dugaan2 Mu..

Aku Terima Nikahnya (ATN)

2009-05-11T18:45:00.000-07:00

salam..
buku 1st yg eah bace was 'aku terima nikahnya' by Ustaz Hasrizal Abdul Jamil aka saifulislam
basically diz book is about alam rumah tangga sebenarnye..
even though eah belum lagi at stage to get marry, but buku ni ttp sesuai dibaca
coz dlm buku ni ade discuz psl cinta zmn remaja..senang kate cinta org2 muda zaman skrg
mcm ape yg eah sdg lalui skrg..bercinta..
so sket2 ape2 input yg eah dpt dpd buku ni leh la share same2..n think about it..

CINTA..
cinta tu ape ye sbnrnye??
cinta tu kan fitrah manusia..
Allah kurniakan perasaan cinta dlm hati setiap hambanya
cinta pada kecantikan,harta,manusia,haiwan,alam sekitar,ibu bapa
tp cinta yg teragung ialah..cinta pada Allah dan RasulNya
kdg2 ble kita tgh mabuk bercinta ni..ape yg kita slalu pkr??
slaaalu sgt pkr n teringat pada sidia
rase mcm terawang2 dek cinta tu..
tp kita kena ingt..cinta manusia tu ade psg dan surutnya..
love can comes n go..cinta hadir dlm diri tanpa kita sedari..n boleh pegi mcm tu je..
tu la cinta antara manusia..
tp Allah xpenah lupa pd hambanye..kdg2 kita lalai dgn tanggungjawab kita pd Allah..
kalo kita buat pon..sbb da mmg rutin kita..keikhlasan tu xbetol hadir dlm hati
kdg2 solat xkhusyuk..baca quran punyela ssh..puase sunat ape tah lg
tp..disebalik ape pon yg kite buat..Allah ttp kuniakan kita mcm2 seribu nikmat..tu pon ttp xsedar2 jgk
hmm...nape ye mst mcm ni..

k la..baek eah ulas sket2 pe yg ade dlm ATN..

~ bercinta lame2.kalo bleh bg remaja2 yg da sure2 xkan menuju ke perkahwinan dalam jangka masa setahun ke2 tahun,elok la jgn bercinta..ade logiknye..yela..bercinta lame2 bleh menimbulkan perasaan jemu dlm hati..xdpt dinafikan..manusia cpt bosan.tp bg eah ni yg da tentu2 tgh bercinta..jaohi perkara2 yg melalaikan..kalo bleh pasni jgn 24 jam pegang hp sms n call je..takot nnt ble da kawin da xreti nk sembang ape..logik kan??byk kan bertaubat..mohon ampun dpd Allah..

~ tp..jgn plak jd kan alasan xnk bercinta lame2,tgh blaja nk kawin.alasannye tkt terjadi benda2 xelok.perkahwinan ni bkn setakat nk menghalalkan ape yg haram je..t/jwb lepas kahwin kena pkr gak..logiknye..xkan da kawin makan minum parents yg tanggung lg.malu je..t/jwb lps kawin tu lg besar dpd t/jwb menjauhi zina.kalo zina pon xbleh nk elak..mcm mane nk memimpin keluarga?da cukup kuat ke nk membina keluarga yg diredhai Allah??rase2 nye blom lg kan..

~bertunang..rahsiakan lah pertunangan.sbg mane hadis Nabi SAW:

"rahsiakan pertunangan dan maklumkan tentang perkahwinan"

nape kite kne rahsiakan pertunangan??sbb..ble kite rahsiakan engagement kite tu..ia dpt kawal diri kite dpd act mcm husband n wife sdg kan b'tunang tu bukan lesen untuk kite wat ske2 hati..baru tunang..lom 2ntu lg berakhir ngan perkahwinan..btol x??lg pon ulama ade menjelaskan bahawa hikmah kite secret kan adlh untuk jaga nikmat engagement ni dpd di jepordize kan oleh hasad manusia yg ade niat xbaek kat kite..subhanallah..detail btol ajaran islam ni kan..

ape yg dpt disimpulkan kat cni..islam tu xmengharamkan cinta..cinta itu lumrah n fitrah manusia.tp kne la btol caranye..jgn maen redah je..subhanallah..eah ingtkan pada diri sendiri jugak..jgn terlampau lalai n asyk di lamun cinta..ingt n ttp kan dlm hati pemilik cinta yg agung adalah Allah dan Rasulnye..seterusnye baru la bleh men'distribute'kan cinta tu pd org len..

Cinta sebenar itu harus terbit dari emosi dan naluri fitrah manusia..tp lahir dgn sandaran rasional n sedar diri terhadap asas cinta tu..t/jwb yg mengiringi cinta n kesan dpd mematerialisasikan perasaan cinta..-ATN

~saje2..~

2009-05-11T18:22:00.000-07:00

ble da abs study ni..terasa mcm otak ni free sgt..
yela..bgun pg2 xpyh pkr pape..
kalo dlu mase study n mse zaman bz thp xterkate tu..bgun pg je trus pkr nk wat pe hr ni
tp slalunye mlm2 sblum tido da stat pkr..bgun pg trus start misi..hehe
sronok ke mcm ni??
hmmm...ntah la..
dlu mase study bkn men lg nk cuti nk cpt2 hbs study
skrg da hbs rase boring plak..
manusia2..mmg ssh sgt nk bersyukur..astarghfirullah..

hari tu..mse hari2 terakhir kt utm..
yanti ade tolong blikan buku2 yg best..
yg di'suggest' untuk dibaca..
dorg tau kot eah ni ske membaca..tp slalunye tensen2 bce novel or magazine
but diz time pin2 hati ni Allah bg hidayah n Allah buke untuk bace buku2 yg lebih berfaedah..
yg lebih membantu untuk bermuhasabah diri..
so thanks a tonz kt kwn2 H06 sbb byk familiarize kn eah dgn buku2 mcm ni

so..skrg terasa nk share plak info dgn anybody yg view blog eah ni..
insyaAllah..eah akn summarize kn pe yg kite leh share bersama

till then..salam..

SiNgaPooore

2009-04-05T23:16:00.000-07:00

28 mac aritu..eah ikut trip g s'pore..saje jln2 sebelum mentensionkan diri wat thesis..hehe.ble g jln2 tu..bkn sekadar nk menyeronokkn diri..tp biarla jln2 tu bermakne n g imput sket..so...ni la pe yg eah dapat mse g sne

singapore...

hmmm...very beautiful country..very moden...n metropolitan
serius..cantik..++++bersih..ya..absolutely bersih..
ape yg menyebabkan eah ckp s'pore ni cantik..

1) building
as we all know..s'pore ni merupakan 1 negara yg kecik+padat.ya..mmg kecik n padat.bangunan yg tinggi2..n jalan yg kecik2.xla lebar sgt jalan de compared dgn masia.tp,susunan building kt sane sgt teratur.itu yg mmg nmpk sgt.disamping susunan yg teratur...building kat sane pon ade mempunyai nilai2 art yg tinggi.okey2...eah admit eah ni bukan la org art yg tau nk sgt menilai art tu mcm mane.tp...building kat sane mmg sgt berseni..design de tu superb..bila panas..pantulan cahaya kat building tu..fuh..cantik..shining gle.belum lg malam...aduhai...cantik nye..terer btol architect dorg eh..antara building yg cntik..esplanade theater.esplanade theater ni kalo kt masia same ngan Istana Budaya..mksudnye bukan calang2 org leh perform kt sane..em bentuk de...kaler de..mmg nmpk berseni+xclusive.

2)toilet
k...toilet..ini sgt jaoh berbeza ngan masia.toilet kt sne...cntik..+ bersih..kita kena contohi dorg.toilet dorg tu bukannye xde org pakai..sure la ade kan.tp npe leh bersih cm2..pelik kn..so kte ni kna ade kesedaran sivik yg lebih..menjaga kebersihan...bukan kt rumah je..kat mane2 pon..

3)cleanliness
ssh nk jumpa sampah merata2 kt s'pore ni.DAMN bersih..even sampul gule2 pon xnmpak bsepah2.apetah lg yg besar2.mayb sbb dorg nye rules n regulations sgt strict.ye la..kalo dpt tangkap kte buang sampah merata..alamatnye kne fine la..1500 SingDolar..equals to 1500xrm2.40..ha..bpe la tu..rm3000++..xkesa la sampah tu besar ke kecik ke..ttp gak kne.so ble da strict sampai cm2 skali..org nk wat salah pon takot..baek simpan sampah tu kat dlm beg buang kat rmh kalo xjumpa tong sampah la kan..dats y negara dorg bersih..kdg2 pelik tgok dorg nye bersih tu..ye la..sampai kon yg letak kat tepi jalan tu..ala yg kaler oren tu..haa..tu pon dorg lap2.fuyoo...clean freak gaknye dorg ni..hehe.tp bagus pe..drp jg kebersihan negara terus la bwk pd jaga nama n ekonomi negara.ble bersih..tourist ske la kn dtg..rase slesa je..so ekonomi negara mantap la kn..kt sne ramai gle tourist.time tu mostly dpd china,japan,korea n indonesia..asian countries..

mase kt sane xde shopping pe sgt pon.xde pe yg menarik..juz shawl kt sne murah2..best2..pe lagi..borong la byk2..hihi.em tp..barang2 branded kt sne best2...tp student lg la..x affordable for a student like me..huhu

juz yg xbape best kt sne..ssh sket nk cari tempat solat.especially kat sentosa island.mmg xde pon tempat solat.ape yg ktorg wat ktorg solat kt 1 tempat yg lapang sket (belakang toilet) tp bersih..alas ngan pape then solat.tawakkal je la pd Allah..no choices..either solat or not.at that time rase sedih gak la..but rase syukur sgt dilahirkan kat masia sebuah negara islam..syukur alhamdulillah

well..hilang la jgk boring + tensen wat thesis ble g jejalan ni..d other day pas blk tu..terpakse la focus wat thesis coz 1 hari da bazir g jalan2.kne double la keja tu..pe pon..thesis pon da selamat anta..juz presentation je next week..waaa...gerun..xpe2 eah..chaaaaiiiiyoook!!!